When I first realized that I am gay

My wife and I shared men while engaged, and continued throughout our marriage. We even had sex with the best man on our wedding night. Although I could have intercourse with her, the majority of the time a man was in bed with us, and I typically fucked her doggie style. She kept her hair short, as a bisexual she liked playing the dyke role with women. We were married for almost 10 years when she suggested wife-swapping, which took me by surprise, but I reluctantly agreed.

The night we met the couple, we had sex in the same room. I started by licking the other woman, but my heart was not in it. (I loved licking my wife's pussy, but a big part of that was licking up the cum from other men who fucked her.) After awhile I could sense the woman was not really enjoying it, so she suggested she suck me. My cock was limp, and stayed limp. I was watching the guy fucking my wife and my wife must have noticed my lack of arousal. I saw her whisper in his ear. He looked over at me and then came over and said, "Show me how much you love sucking cock." Beth must have told him, because that always excites me. I hungrily showed him what a cocksucker I am. Almost immediately I was rock hard, and his wife rode my cock until she orgasmed.

After they left, my wife smiled and said, "I love you." We did not really talk about it, but I knew and she knew.