Am I gay?

I've always lived and presented myself as heterosexual. But ever since I first starting getting off on straight porn..I realized I was most turned on by male/female action....not realizing at first that I was envious of the women who were sucking and licking and feeling beautiful penis in their mouths and orifices. I eventually married a wonderful woman....but continued secretly masturbating to fantasies of having sex with men. This lead to visiting adult bookstores and masturbating alone in the booth to gay porn....and one magical night, I had my one and only real life gay experience. I was driving home from the city, kinda late. I was horny (as usual) and thinking about cock and male ass. I had always wondered if I ever had the opportunity to act on my fantasies and be with an actual man in real life...would I freak out...or be grossed out and not want to go through with it. But I was pretty horny and worked up the nerve to pull into a gay bar parking lot. There was a guy outside his car wearing very short, shorts. His bare thighs were SO sexy...my cock was raging in my jeans. I actually worked up the nerve to roll my window down and say "hi". We chatted briefly (I have no idea what we said) but I got out of my car and he got in his. I was at his window chatting with him...and asked him if I could caress his bare thighs...and he let me. His thighs felt so good....light hair. My heart was pounding, my cock was raging as I asked if I could feel his bulge....and he let me. I started gently squeezing his hard cock through his shorts...and I was in heaven. He got out of the car and I asked him if I could see and feel his cock....he pulled down his shorts and his beautiful, erect penis sprung out...I was breathing heavy...was vibrating all over...I had been dreaming and fantasizing about this moment for years! I knelt down and immediately began kissing and licking and sucking his hard cock. I can't articulate how incredible this felt...the feel of his penis in my mouth...the idea that I was sucking a mans cock...and loving it. I rubbed his dick all over my face, I slapped it on my face, I kissed it, I loved it...I took it deep in my mouth, feeling his swollen, spongy cock head in the back of my throat. I ran my hands up the back of his thighs and started fondling and squeezing his luscious ass cheeks - my hands full of naked male ass and my mouth full of throbbing cock...I loved it. I wanted to spin him around and spend some time kissing, licking and tonguing his sexy ass...but he wanted my cock. I stood up and ripped my pants down and revealed how very aroused I was. I asked him if we could rub our cocks together...he liked that. Then he got down and stared sucking my cock beautifully...as good as it felt, the bigger turn on for me was that it was a man sucking my cock! About now, a car pulled in - we both thought it was police, so we retreated to our separate cars and drove off...unfortunately, we got separated in our panic and were unable to reconnect. I so wanted to suck his cock some more....and much more. I was so hot and turned on that I had to pull over on a dark road....pull my pants down in the car and stroke my still-hard cock to orgasm. I licked my own cum off my hand and drove home. Now I masturbate to gay porn and gay sex fantasy literally every chance I get. My cock is rock hard as I write this and I'm going to jerk-off to gay sex fantasy as soon as I finish this. My wife and i get along great...but we're not intimate. I would rather stroke my hard cock, lick my own precum off my fingers while fingering my ass while dreaming about having sex with men than do anything with my wife. There are zero women in my favorites on this page by design. I often wake up with a raging hard-on, having dreamt about being naked with a man or a group of men, exploring, feeling and tasting each others naked bodies...and have to sneak down stairs and jerk-off. I long for the day when I can have hot, passionate sex with a man or men. Does this mean I'm gay?