My sissy Journal May 2021
Today is actually June 4th and this is four days late but it's no big deal.
Day #154.
Still locked in chastity.
Still only anal.
Still masturbate with a dildo at least once a day.
Still have no intention of playing with my clit.
So, May has been uneventful and I haven't been fucked (yet) this year. My one sexual encounter was with a guy who followed me home from the take-away after spotting I was wearing panties. Caught up with me in a back street and I let him finger me after he asked to see the panties I was wearing. Ended up on my knees swallowing his cum but did not get to take his dick and haven't seen or heard from him since.
My cage is a constant reminder that I only cum like a girl now and whenever I think about it, I have to fuck myself. Having so much free time these days means that I can act on it every time a dirty thought crosses my mind. Without giving it a second thought, I make my way to the bedroom, grab a dildo and spread my legs. Spending so much time with a dildo deep inside me has taught me to sissygasm each time I play. It doesn't seem to matter how often I fuck myself, I can't help cumming whenever I'm filled with dildo. I literally mean it. The longer I remain anal-only, the less effort I have to put in to sissygasm, it's ridiculously easy. One day last month I wanted to tease and slowly build up to a huge sissygasm. I used to spend hours and hours happily riding my toy until I couldn't take no more and frantically bounced up and down until I finally squirted. When I tried to do just that, I found myself getting closer and closer to cumming without trying. I tried slowing down until I had to stop moving completely. Kneeling up with the toy still inside me, utterly motionless, I could still feel my orgasm building up and I could do nothing to stop it. My sissy fuck-hole was clenching tightly to the dildo and my breathing got quicker and quicker. I was fighting NOT to orgasm, and losing badly. In a desperate attempt to delay the inevitable while still sitting on my dildo(once its in there is NO way I'm taking it out again, I don't have any willpower when it comes to anal sex) I grabbed the xbox pad and tried taking my mind off it by playing a game. Before the title screen was up, I was cumming uncontrollably. It seems that its no longer even a choice and as long as my sissy hole is full, I cant stop myself cumming without removing the toy. With that in mind, I imagine what I'll be like when I finally get a real dick inside me for the first time this year.!! What if I ask permission to cum and the guy fucking me says no?? I would hate to be disobedient but I doubt I will be able to stop myself cumming on his dick.
This is what I've become. This is how much I love receiving anal. This is the kind of slut I have turned into. This is what chastity does to those who willingly surrender to it. My name is alexa, and I live for anal sex and I love being a dirty little anal-only sissy.
alexa xoxo
Day #154.
Still locked in chastity.
Still only anal.
Still masturbate with a dildo at least once a day.
Still have no intention of playing with my clit.
So, May has been uneventful and I haven't been fucked (yet) this year. My one sexual encounter was with a guy who followed me home from the take-away after spotting I was wearing panties. Caught up with me in a back street and I let him finger me after he asked to see the panties I was wearing. Ended up on my knees swallowing his cum but did not get to take his dick and haven't seen or heard from him since.
My cage is a constant reminder that I only cum like a girl now and whenever I think about it, I have to fuck myself. Having so much free time these days means that I can act on it every time a dirty thought crosses my mind. Without giving it a second thought, I make my way to the bedroom, grab a dildo and spread my legs. Spending so much time with a dildo deep inside me has taught me to sissygasm each time I play. It doesn't seem to matter how often I fuck myself, I can't help cumming whenever I'm filled with dildo. I literally mean it. The longer I remain anal-only, the less effort I have to put in to sissygasm, it's ridiculously easy. One day last month I wanted to tease and slowly build up to a huge sissygasm. I used to spend hours and hours happily riding my toy until I couldn't take no more and frantically bounced up and down until I finally squirted. When I tried to do just that, I found myself getting closer and closer to cumming without trying. I tried slowing down until I had to stop moving completely. Kneeling up with the toy still inside me, utterly motionless, I could still feel my orgasm building up and I could do nothing to stop it. My sissy fuck-hole was clenching tightly to the dildo and my breathing got quicker and quicker. I was fighting NOT to orgasm, and losing badly. In a desperate attempt to delay the inevitable while still sitting on my dildo(once its in there is NO way I'm taking it out again, I don't have any willpower when it comes to anal sex) I grabbed the xbox pad and tried taking my mind off it by playing a game. Before the title screen was up, I was cumming uncontrollably. It seems that its no longer even a choice and as long as my sissy hole is full, I cant stop myself cumming without removing the toy. With that in mind, I imagine what I'll be like when I finally get a real dick inside me for the first time this year.!! What if I ask permission to cum and the guy fucking me says no?? I would hate to be disobedient but I doubt I will be able to stop myself cumming on his dick.
This is what I've become. This is how much I love receiving anal. This is the kind of slut I have turned into. This is what chastity does to those who willingly surrender to it. My name is alexa, and I live for anal sex and I love being a dirty little anal-only sissy.
alexa xoxo
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