What does it mean to you??
As the days and weeks of 2021 fly by (today is day 189 or or July 8th) and I remain caged, smooth and anal-only, I have begun to notice some subtle changes in myself, my sexuality and sexual preferences. Let me give you an example. Ass to mouth. I remember that I used to ask guys to take out their cock and let me suck it before they put it back inside me. I would do this because I enjoyed the reactions of whoever was fucking me, the way they would look at me like I was the filthiest slut they had ever seen and the names they would call me as i begged them to put their dick in my mouth every time it came out of my hole. Doing it gave me a thrill but the actual act was something i could take or leave, until recently. I kinda drifted off into a trance with my dildo inside me one night a few weeks back, and before I had even noticed it, I was pulling my toy out, sucking and licking it then slipping it back in, over and over. And I was totally alone, nobody watching me on webcam, not taking pics or vids, just me, and my dildo, masturbating. It dawned on me that I was enjoying doing ass to mouth alone and I had no Idea when I began to enjoy tasting my hole.
Another example. I used the word "masturbate" a sentence ago, and I cant remember when It changed from stroking, to fucking myself with a toy, but It definitely had changed and I definitely think of masturbation as the act of fucking myself. A final example is a recent discovery that has subtly crept up on me and now is totally embedded within my sexual play. See, after my first sissygasm and the knowledge that I could actually cum from anal penetration alone, I still had to work for each and every last orgasm I had, and I mean really work hard to cum like a girl. Hours and hours of riding my dildo without any thought of touching my "clitty" to help me cum. When or more often IF i was able to cum like a girl, I'd be covered in sweat and collapse and pass out or lie in a zombie like state till I came to my sense.
This year, with my clit locked full time and daily masturbation whenever the mood takes me (covid=free time to do as I pleased) I gradually reached a kind of tipping point where I stopped having to work so hard for each and every sissygasm. Slowly at first, it grew easier to cum like a girl, and as it got easier it made me masturbate even more. I started to sissygasm four or five times a week (probably about 50% of the time I fucked myself) until I reached the stage I am proudly at right this moment. Now, whenever I masturbate, I sissygasm and sometimes don't even stop when I do, continuing until I cum a 2nd time. Now It's a struggle for me Not to cum
in a matter of seconds whenever I'm filled with dildo. I tried to stop it and couldn't help my clitty squirting even though I had stopped all movement and simply lay with my hole full of dildo. Its a curse and a blessing I guess. Should I wish to build up to a huge mind-melting sissygasm over the course of many hours like I used to do, It's not easy. But, on the other hand, I can simply ride my toy, sissygasm quickly, then continue riding as I lick up my cum. So far, 4 sissygasms in 24 hours is the most I could manage and the final one actually had me working as hard as I used to have to do before eventually, maybe inevitably? I was cumming in my cage and moaning like a whore.
The point of all this is that earlier today, I was reading a blog and found that seeing or hearing the word "sissy", brought an instant influx thoughts and images. The word "sissy" when I read or hear it, conjures up certain things for me. Chastity. Anal-penetration. Sissygasms. Smooth skin. Femininity. Obedience. Swallowing cum. Spreading my legs. Sexual satisfaction. Pride even.
So, to any sissy's who chance to read this post, I would like to ask
"What does the word "sissy" mean to you? What springs to mind when you see or hear it? What thoughts do you associate with it??
I would love to know your thoughts on this. Even the straight guys/girls, daddy's Doms and Mistresses probably have these kind of thoughts and I would welcome any input from those people too.
my name is alexa and I am a dirty anal-only sissyslut who now has to masturbatel xoxo
Another example. I used the word "masturbate" a sentence ago, and I cant remember when It changed from stroking, to fucking myself with a toy, but It definitely had changed and I definitely think of masturbation as the act of fucking myself. A final example is a recent discovery that has subtly crept up on me and now is totally embedded within my sexual play. See, after my first sissygasm and the knowledge that I could actually cum from anal penetration alone, I still had to work for each and every last orgasm I had, and I mean really work hard to cum like a girl. Hours and hours of riding my dildo without any thought of touching my "clitty" to help me cum. When or more often IF i was able to cum like a girl, I'd be covered in sweat and collapse and pass out or lie in a zombie like state till I came to my sense.
This year, with my clit locked full time and daily masturbation whenever the mood takes me (covid=free time to do as I pleased) I gradually reached a kind of tipping point where I stopped having to work so hard for each and every sissygasm. Slowly at first, it grew easier to cum like a girl, and as it got easier it made me masturbate even more. I started to sissygasm four or five times a week (probably about 50% of the time I fucked myself) until I reached the stage I am proudly at right this moment. Now, whenever I masturbate, I sissygasm and sometimes don't even stop when I do, continuing until I cum a 2nd time. Now It's a struggle for me Not to cum
in a matter of seconds whenever I'm filled with dildo. I tried to stop it and couldn't help my clitty squirting even though I had stopped all movement and simply lay with my hole full of dildo. Its a curse and a blessing I guess. Should I wish to build up to a huge mind-melting sissygasm over the course of many hours like I used to do, It's not easy. But, on the other hand, I can simply ride my toy, sissygasm quickly, then continue riding as I lick up my cum. So far, 4 sissygasms in 24 hours is the most I could manage and the final one actually had me working as hard as I used to have to do before eventually, maybe inevitably? I was cumming in my cage and moaning like a whore.
The point of all this is that earlier today, I was reading a blog and found that seeing or hearing the word "sissy", brought an instant influx thoughts and images. The word "sissy" when I read or hear it, conjures up certain things for me. Chastity. Anal-penetration. Sissygasms. Smooth skin. Femininity. Obedience. Swallowing cum. Spreading my legs. Sexual satisfaction. Pride even.
So, to any sissy's who chance to read this post, I would like to ask
"What does the word "sissy" mean to you? What springs to mind when you see or hear it? What thoughts do you associate with it??
I would love to know your thoughts on this. Even the straight guys/girls, daddy's Doms and Mistresses probably have these kind of thoughts and I would welcome any input from those people too.
my name is alexa and I am a dirty anal-only sissyslut who now has to masturbatel xoxo
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