BBC and being a mixed raced wanna be sissy

as anybody who has spent time chatting and sharing pics with me on here knows..i am (and have been) VERY sissy inclined and sexually oriented for at least the last two yrs on this site , feeding my my mind almost daily with gifs , caption slide shows and video trainers . as a person of mixed race /culture( black /white) i always thought i was almost soley attracted to BWC... HOWEVER , its seems (just recently) the whole sissy/BBC thing has clicked for me and i am ENJOYING gifs and pics of..(you guessed it ) BBC!!!...even thought i have dark brown cock of my own ..its more or less average ...and anything bigger then mine just triggers me extra ...basicallyit seems the sissy mind..does not care about your background ...and BBC is just a natural big part of it all. everything about this lifestyle constantly continues to amaze AND surprise ,,,i can probably also count on evolving into other taboos and things i previously thought i did not like. hmmm ? i will see i guess.