Horny CD in my new tights...

Hello everyone. Hope you are all doing well, and Jacking those Perverted Cocks. I'm just here Xdressing, I bought new tights today. They are soo cute. It's the first time I've purchased footless tights. They are wonderfull. So I'm in grey tights, and a grey leotard, with my favorite "frilly little anle sox". Smoking a little meth and getting incredibly horny. I'm actually thinking about getting my toys out and try again to train my pussy(asshole). Last time was horrible. I want a little gape but am having trouble. My ass is pretty much virgin and is very tight. I cant get any of the toys inside. Hurts too much. So I bought a med size plug and after bunch of lube "And work" finnally got it in and masturbated to an explosive gay orgasm. But... It got stuck and I couldn't get it out. I tried and tried, but it hurt soo bad when I pulled on it. I was so scared and started to panic and cry a little. I left it in as long as I could but it started hurting from just being in my ass. It hurt to leave in and to take out. I wished I had a boyfreind to help me. I even used Doc Johnsons numbing lube. Anyway, I put on my big girl panties, and while crying like a schoolgirl, yelled "Well you're gay now little slut so you better get used to it faggot" and yanked it out, making my cock drip an unusual amount of precum when it popped out. I thought something might have torn, but it was just pain. I cried for a long time with pain and dissapointment. Maybe I just need a good ass r@pe. I'm not a quitter. I will gape. I promise you that. Any tips would be greatly appreciated. Any one else doing this? We could start a gape club and learn from eachother, while documenting the progress of our gape. Bye perverts. I love you.