I am ready to be owned permanently

sissy postop MtF 55 serving and offering my submission to an experienced Dom is always the first and foremost thrill because some Dom are really fun and have an endless imagination when it comes to mind fucks and humiliation, and the pleasure of serving is my first priority, if sex is wanted it is just a plus, since i was mostly in chastity before my surgery. now if you think about what i just wrote, i have not had an orgasm in 13 months, yes it is frustrating but at the same time in my mind it is a turn on because the way the surgery is done, when i get aroused, it is like i am having an erection but not to be seen or touched, but o how it is feels and looking down i see nothing and my mind goes bananas because visually it tells me that my dick has been buried under my skin so that i can now be used and trained as a sissy sex slave and that all of what happend to me in the last few years is part of a much bigger plan that i have not foreseen and up to this point looked unrelated. As i write this i wonder! Is it really unrelated?... i find myself today realising i am at the best point in my life in relation not having any more responsabilities, my k**s are all grown up, workwise i am at a standstill, and my surgery is done, i can give everything up whithout hurthing anyone or leaving any emotional burden, that gives me the realistic opportunity to be able to engage in a lifelong dream of 24/7 slavery relocation will be done if needed.