Have i been "role playing" as a man all

I learned something very interesting about myself while at the Rochester Erotic Arts Festival this year. It is true that i spent more time in the role of supportive husband to my Wife/Mistress; wearing boy clothes over my bra and panties, just i do everyday during my regular work week - this experience was different. You see, in this setting, everybody knew or else learned very quickly, that i was the submissive of Mistress Sensual, and that i take orders from her and focus entirely on her comfort and pleasures. Even when i am directing hotel staff or guiding other submissives in how the event is to be set up, i am submissive. Even though i was unable to fully dress in my glamorus jasmine gowns or skimpy lingerie, my collar and unattached cuffs were clearly visible every hour of the event. And it wasn't until the event was over - that a new and clear revelation occurred to me... And that is how this is My reality. This is my true form!
All this time, i thought i was roleplaying as a secret sissy femmed submissive. Now I know the difference. In reality, i am roleplaying as "A Man"! That guy that shows up for work 9-5 is a fake, a poser, and a mask i wear to those who are not worthy of my true self. My cock swagger mannerisms and attempts to look "cool for the chicks" is as much an act as any i put on in Junior High.
i am a sissy cock sucking slut. i only pretend to be "Normal." i only pretend to be a man. i love accepting the reality of my fate, and knowing my Mistress has created the perfect mate to serve and please her.