Winter Orgasm Drought
Sometimes i feel like i am losing my "self" in my servitude, which i suppose is part of the deal. My online service to Master Danny requires that i give my Husband a minimum of 3 blowjobs daily, and dress around the house in a way that both permits and encourages "free use." O/our contract also stipulates that while i am to masturbate 3x daily, i am not permitted to bring myself to orgasm, depending instead on my Husband's cock, mouth and fingers for my orgasms.
For the most part, this agreement has led to dramatically increased sexual activity and intimacy with my Husband which is wonderful! However, when the days are cold and short, and colds and flu work their way through the house, it can lead to Hubby getting a bit lazy and complacent with my constant attention to His cock and displays of my body.
In the warmer weather, when the days are long and energy is high, Hubby's thrice daily blowjobs are often just the beginning of a wonderful love making session, a lovely quickie, or more often... something in between, where His cock ends up deep in my cunt and often brings me to orgasm(s) once or twice a day.
In recent weeks, however, the blowjobs usually lead only to my mouth and belly full of His cum, a grope of my hanging udders and an appreciative "mmm, thank you sweetheart" from Him. i have been trained that it is my place in life to bring Him pleasure, and my body exists for His amusement to provide Him with sexual gratification and release, so receiving His seed is the ultimate gift and compliment, however my cunt yearns to be filled by His cock and cum. Every time my mouth receives His load my heart sinks a bit knowing it will be awhile longer until He fucks me. In a typical summertime week, i am gifted 5 or more orgasms by Hubby, but i have had only a couple since Thanksgiving and i am so freakin' horny.
i know i shouldn't complain... i have friends who rarely (if ever) orgasm with their Husbands, but it is hard sometimes to remember that there are sexual ebbs and flows in every relationship. It is so strange to be eagerly counting the days (2 or 3 now) until my period starts, knowing that i can and will enjoy many self induced orgasms while giving my Husband blowjobs. My contract with Master Danny specifically permits me to bring myself to orgasm only while my period is active and my Husband's cock is in my mouth.
Once my period is done, i will recommit myself to serving my Husband's needs in a way that is more likely to lead to Him wanting to fuck me. By focusing even more intently on His needs and desires, i will find fulfillment for my own!
-n
For the most part, this agreement has led to dramatically increased sexual activity and intimacy with my Husband which is wonderful! However, when the days are cold and short, and colds and flu work their way through the house, it can lead to Hubby getting a bit lazy and complacent with my constant attention to His cock and displays of my body.
In the warmer weather, when the days are long and energy is high, Hubby's thrice daily blowjobs are often just the beginning of a wonderful love making session, a lovely quickie, or more often... something in between, where His cock ends up deep in my cunt and often brings me to orgasm(s) once or twice a day.
In recent weeks, however, the blowjobs usually lead only to my mouth and belly full of His cum, a grope of my hanging udders and an appreciative "mmm, thank you sweetheart" from Him. i have been trained that it is my place in life to bring Him pleasure, and my body exists for His amusement to provide Him with sexual gratification and release, so receiving His seed is the ultimate gift and compliment, however my cunt yearns to be filled by His cock and cum. Every time my mouth receives His load my heart sinks a bit knowing it will be awhile longer until He fucks me. In a typical summertime week, i am gifted 5 or more orgasms by Hubby, but i have had only a couple since Thanksgiving and i am so freakin' horny.
i know i shouldn't complain... i have friends who rarely (if ever) orgasm with their Husbands, but it is hard sometimes to remember that there are sexual ebbs and flows in every relationship. It is so strange to be eagerly counting the days (2 or 3 now) until my period starts, knowing that i can and will enjoy many self induced orgasms while giving my Husband blowjobs. My contract with Master Danny specifically permits me to bring myself to orgasm only while my period is active and my Husband's cock is in my mouth.
Once my period is done, i will recommit myself to serving my Husband's needs in a way that is more likely to lead to Him wanting to fuck me. By focusing even more intently on His needs and desires, i will find fulfillment for my own!
-n
2 years ago
