Semen Retention

A further step in growing my spiritual connection with all things phallic is semen retention. In simple terms I mean the act of masturbating without reaching orgasm. For most of my life this seemed like a silly idea - the point of masturbating was to cum, plain and simple. But I have now learned that masturbation is more. To fully engage with my cock, to edge my cock to homosexual images and thoughts itself is the purpose. The orgasm can be the reward, and as is often the case in the rest of life, sometimes the reward is sweeter when it is delayed. When I start a session knowing that I am not going to cum at the end, I am better connected to the experience and the pleasure my cock gives me. And then when I end the session without orgasm I remain largely in the same mental space I was in during the session, with thoughts of cock and pleasure pleasantly intruding almost constantly. I will spend the next day wearing a cock ring, which enhances the feeling of my cock while I go about routine tasks. I will listen to homosexuality focused soundtracks and erotic stories and the more I do the more deeply my mind becomes focused on homosexuality. I have only gone as far as a few days with this, but intend to work to longer periods of semen retention to see to what new places homosexuality can take me.