3/24/2025 UPDATE:
So I haven't been terribly active making content the past few months, and have had a few messages asking where I've been, and I'm excited to finally be able to share the details of my next adventure!
As most of you know, my ultimate dream is to simply be a piece of owned property, and I am happy to report that after years of dreaming, fantasizing, and searching, I have finally found my ideal 24/7 live-in situation! We've been in regular communication and he has even come out to visit twice, and our compatability in what we both want from a dom/sub situation is near perfect. He is an experienced dom with a regular rotation of play partners but has wanted a full 24/7 live-in slave for some time.
One week from today (on 3/31/25) I'll be flying to Dallas. I'm only bringing with me the absolute essentials for travel. He'll be meeting me at the airport. When I meet him, he's made it very clear that my option to back out of the arrangement is open until I get into his truck. Once I'm in the back of the truck, I belong to him. The plan is, I turn off my cell phone, give it to him, then get in the truck.
Once I'm locked in the back of the truck, we have a roughly 6-hour ride to get to our destination. As per our arrangement, I have no idea if that 6 hours is north, south, east, west, or just driving in circles (one piece of this is that I literally will not know where I am). At some point on the ride I will be told to remove all my clothes, and that will be the last time I ever wear clothes. He's also said there will be some restraints for me to put on.
He owns a large piece of property that contains a house, a barn, and lots of open land. There are no neighbors for miles. It's super private (I've seen pictures). When we arrive, we'll have a bonfire, and absolutely everything I brought with me will be burned. Every stitch of clothing, wallet, bank card, driver's license, social security card, everything will be destroyed. Finally I will have zero possessions, clothing, ID, anything, and will be in some remote place that I don't know. I will literally be his property.
And that's when my new life truly begins. He and I have discussed many things he might do after that point, many involving restraints, large anal toy training, other play partners of his, even his animals, but that's probably just scratching the surface. I know initially I'll be restrained at all times, and my main residence will be a stall in the barn. It's all part of my training, for me to learn his routines of discipline and reward, and to become accustomed to not being human anymore. He's said he wants me to be just another of his animals, and for a former person, that takes some training. Basically he wants to psychologically condition me to respond to his commands like a dog would.
Of course there will be an adjustment period, but I'm looking forward to it. To be honest, the hardest part of all this to arrange has been dissolving the life I've been living. I've given away a ton of stuff, thrown a bunch away, and have been in touch with a local charity to donate the rest (and had to coordinate with my landlord so they know to let them in). I've had to give notice and quit my job, close out most of my bank accounts (not like there was much there). And I've had to carefully field the inevitable questions about why I'm basically liqefying my possessions and bouncing out of the place I've lived in for a decade now. Luckily I'd already deactivated all my non-porn social media accounts so people can't follow me around there and wonder why I vanish.
My cover story has basically been "I'm moving back to Boston to stay with family" (where I'm originally from), and I've been saying I've arranged a lot on that end so I don't need to worry about moving everything from here. And no one place or person is aware of just how much I've been getting rid of.
(ironically, although I do have family in Boston, they cut me off years ago due to my widely publicized porn)
So after weeks of arranging, I have it set up so everyone out here is fully expecting me to bon voyage and rarely hear from me, while no one in Boston is actually expecting me. And I'm going to slip unnoticed right down the middle into the life I've always dreamed of.
Alas, I suppose that also means I'm "retiring", in a sense. I certainly won't be logging into my accounts and making updates anymore. It's entirely possible that I'll still be used in porn movies, but as I'll have no control over that, I honestly can't say where or if it will ever appear online. And while the world might not be watching me anymore, rest assured I am still doing my thing. Or at least, having my thing done to me. And you can't say I haven't left plenty of content behind; none of that's going anywhere! You can enjoy my posts forever.
And now that I think of it, this update is the last post of any length I'm ever going to make. By this time next week, I won't even be a person anymore. I'll be an animal. I'll be property. I'll be nothing but a meatpuppet.
Which is really all I've ever been anyway.
As most of you know, my ultimate dream is to simply be a piece of owned property, and I am happy to report that after years of dreaming, fantasizing, and searching, I have finally found my ideal 24/7 live-in situation! We've been in regular communication and he has even come out to visit twice, and our compatability in what we both want from a dom/sub situation is near perfect. He is an experienced dom with a regular rotation of play partners but has wanted a full 24/7 live-in slave for some time.
One week from today (on 3/31/25) I'll be flying to Dallas. I'm only bringing with me the absolute essentials for travel. He'll be meeting me at the airport. When I meet him, he's made it very clear that my option to back out of the arrangement is open until I get into his truck. Once I'm in the back of the truck, I belong to him. The plan is, I turn off my cell phone, give it to him, then get in the truck.
Once I'm locked in the back of the truck, we have a roughly 6-hour ride to get to our destination. As per our arrangement, I have no idea if that 6 hours is north, south, east, west, or just driving in circles (one piece of this is that I literally will not know where I am). At some point on the ride I will be told to remove all my clothes, and that will be the last time I ever wear clothes. He's also said there will be some restraints for me to put on.
He owns a large piece of property that contains a house, a barn, and lots of open land. There are no neighbors for miles. It's super private (I've seen pictures). When we arrive, we'll have a bonfire, and absolutely everything I brought with me will be burned. Every stitch of clothing, wallet, bank card, driver's license, social security card, everything will be destroyed. Finally I will have zero possessions, clothing, ID, anything, and will be in some remote place that I don't know. I will literally be his property.
And that's when my new life truly begins. He and I have discussed many things he might do after that point, many involving restraints, large anal toy training, other play partners of his, even his animals, but that's probably just scratching the surface. I know initially I'll be restrained at all times, and my main residence will be a stall in the barn. It's all part of my training, for me to learn his routines of discipline and reward, and to become accustomed to not being human anymore. He's said he wants me to be just another of his animals, and for a former person, that takes some training. Basically he wants to psychologically condition me to respond to his commands like a dog would.
Of course there will be an adjustment period, but I'm looking forward to it. To be honest, the hardest part of all this to arrange has been dissolving the life I've been living. I've given away a ton of stuff, thrown a bunch away, and have been in touch with a local charity to donate the rest (and had to coordinate with my landlord so they know to let them in). I've had to give notice and quit my job, close out most of my bank accounts (not like there was much there). And I've had to carefully field the inevitable questions about why I'm basically liqefying my possessions and bouncing out of the place I've lived in for a decade now. Luckily I'd already deactivated all my non-porn social media accounts so people can't follow me around there and wonder why I vanish.
My cover story has basically been "I'm moving back to Boston to stay with family" (where I'm originally from), and I've been saying I've arranged a lot on that end so I don't need to worry about moving everything from here. And no one place or person is aware of just how much I've been getting rid of.
(ironically, although I do have family in Boston, they cut me off years ago due to my widely publicized porn)
So after weeks of arranging, I have it set up so everyone out here is fully expecting me to bon voyage and rarely hear from me, while no one in Boston is actually expecting me. And I'm going to slip unnoticed right down the middle into the life I've always dreamed of.
Alas, I suppose that also means I'm "retiring", in a sense. I certainly won't be logging into my accounts and making updates anymore. It's entirely possible that I'll still be used in porn movies, but as I'll have no control over that, I honestly can't say where or if it will ever appear online. And while the world might not be watching me anymore, rest assured I am still doing my thing. Or at least, having my thing done to me. And you can't say I haven't left plenty of content behind; none of that's going anywhere! You can enjoy my posts forever.
And now that I think of it, this update is the last post of any length I'm ever going to make. By this time next week, I won't even be a person anymore. I'll be an animal. I'll be property. I'll be nothing but a meatpuppet.
Which is really all I've ever been anyway.
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