Am I Cheating?
So as you already probably know from my other post is that I broke up with my Latino lover. So if we are not together, then why is it so difficult to even think about being with another guy? I am thinking about seeing my old friend-with-benefits guy next week, but I am very leery about anything going down other than dinner--he offered to cook because he's sweet like that. But the sex used to be pretty good (BEFORE my Latino lover)--he has a large black cock and as a result can really fuck me from behind despite my huge ass (a HUGE obstacle course for smaller guys) and we fuck or make love passionately and he can give it too me rough. And he is kinky as hell. One time he wanted to have sex in an elevator but I refused because of fucking aunt flow. She really knows how to mess up shit, doesn't she?
Anyway, the problem is that as much as I like giving head, I don't like giving head to him. Not because he's large, but because he's dry. I don't know, I can't explain it. He have very little precum and I enjoy when I get that consistently while I'm giving head. It really tantalizes my taste buds and sends explosions of pleasure to my own brain. I guess I just don't like his taste. I don't think it can improve with anything. And the other thing that annoyed me, is that out of the three guys I've given head to in my life, he is the only one who "expected" it and even waited for it, not reciprocating at all. So that pissed me off like crazy. Because although he can go for a long time, he has only made me cum once from going down on me, but not vaginally from fucking. So I get no benefit at all from giving him head. And because I don't like how he tastes, I don't even get turned on when I do it.
The one hot thing that we did only once, was that we spontaneously 69'd which was my first time and it was incredible, but it was extremely HARD to concentrate (no pun intended lol). I am the type of girl who loves giving head, and my goal in life is to become a pro at it because I love it so much and get so turned and and ridiculously wet and horny during the whole process. So concentration is key for me. I like to be stimulated mainly by having my ass slapped and getting some dirty words thrown at me from the recipient, so 69, while incredible and all, it is too distracting from the real goal CUM!
All that being said, I don't know if I am more leery because it is taking him forever to figure out my body so sex doesn't really benefit me that much, or if I am so distraught over my Latino ex, that I literally feel like sex with anyone else is just plain cheating--but it's probably both and the latter more than the former. Isn't this fucking ridiculous? Who deals with this shit except for me? God I wish I was normal sometimes and could just fuck any dick I wanted but I just can't. So as a result, my previous lover, until another one and a better one comes along, casts a shadow on my sex life. And hence why I return to them to get an occasional bang here and there. With a wet and often tight pussy I'm never turned away. Ay, now there's the rub.
Anyway, the problem is that as much as I like giving head, I don't like giving head to him. Not because he's large, but because he's dry. I don't know, I can't explain it. He have very little precum and I enjoy when I get that consistently while I'm giving head. It really tantalizes my taste buds and sends explosions of pleasure to my own brain. I guess I just don't like his taste. I don't think it can improve with anything. And the other thing that annoyed me, is that out of the three guys I've given head to in my life, he is the only one who "expected" it and even waited for it, not reciprocating at all. So that pissed me off like crazy. Because although he can go for a long time, he has only made me cum once from going down on me, but not vaginally from fucking. So I get no benefit at all from giving him head. And because I don't like how he tastes, I don't even get turned on when I do it.
The one hot thing that we did only once, was that we spontaneously 69'd which was my first time and it was incredible, but it was extremely HARD to concentrate (no pun intended lol). I am the type of girl who loves giving head, and my goal in life is to become a pro at it because I love it so much and get so turned and and ridiculously wet and horny during the whole process. So concentration is key for me. I like to be stimulated mainly by having my ass slapped and getting some dirty words thrown at me from the recipient, so 69, while incredible and all, it is too distracting from the real goal CUM!
All that being said, I don't know if I am more leery because it is taking him forever to figure out my body so sex doesn't really benefit me that much, or if I am so distraught over my Latino ex, that I literally feel like sex with anyone else is just plain cheating--but it's probably both and the latter more than the former. Isn't this fucking ridiculous? Who deals with this shit except for me? God I wish I was normal sometimes and could just fuck any dick I wanted but I just can't. So as a result, my previous lover, until another one and a better one comes along, casts a shadow on my sex life. And hence why I return to them to get an occasional bang here and there. With a wet and often tight pussy I'm never turned away. Ay, now there's the rub.
13 years ago