Frequently Asked Questions
Due to the redundant nature of many of the questions I receive on a daily basis here on Xhamster, I thought it might be a good idea to create this post to provide answers for some of the more frequently asked ones. I know that some of these questions are probably just harassment, but they are very real and I get them at least once a week.
Who's "Lilith?" I explain this in my bio, however I wrote another blog entry with my conception of Lilith, what she means to me, and why I chose her as my avatar for this site. If you want a more historical/mythological perspective, Michaela has written an excellent narrative regarding such. Here are the links to the two blogs respectively:
http://xhamster.com/user/lilith10/posts/135768.html
http://xhamster.com/user/Mikebasil/posts/125149.html
Are you a Satanist? No. Though Satan and Lilith both involve the freeing of the soul through the recognition of the true motivations that underlay our psychology, Satan is oriented more around action, while Lilith remains oriented around self-awareness. Whereas many Satanists believe that freedom comes through acting upon one's desires, my concept of Lilith is that she represents freedom being obtained from simply recognizing those desires. Satanist believe that acting upon one's will, even if it harms another living being or imposes upon their will, is permissible so long as the person doing the imposing can get away with it, both in consequence and conscious. My concept of Lilith is that desires need not be acted upon to be satiated. They must be recognized and accepted, but so long as an action harms another living creature, it is to the benefit of our society that those desires be redirected or contained. But never should they be repressed.
So if Lilith is "good," why all the dark imagery? I believe in the psychological principle which asserts that all human beings have naturally occurring thoughts, impulses, desires, and fantasies and that all of these seek expression within an individual in one form or another, regardless of whether they are expressly recognized by that individual. I believe that when these psychic needs are not recognized, either because a person is deliberately ignoring them or because they are unaware of their existence, they become warped, distorted, amplified, and exaggerated until they are impossible to ignore. When they become impossible to ignore, they inevitably find expression, though many times this is to the detriment of the person.
I call this process of repression, warping, and forced expression "The Lilith Effect." The reason I use dark imagery to explain the concept is because when we repress something it gets thrown out of the conscious "light" and into the "darkness" of the u*********s. In the psychic abyss of the u*********s dwells all of the things we fear or hate or shun. Thoughts that we consider immoral or horrid or terrible or sinful have their home there. When we throw a perfectly natural desire into this abyss, it gets grouped with all of that nasty, actual bad stuff around it. While there, the desire remains very active, yet it begins to grow while feeding upon the psychic material surrounding it. Because it is growing in the u*********s in this way, the original desire often begins to take on the characteristics of its environment, i.e., it becomes associated with "bad" thoughts and nightmares and everything else which is forbidden. Thus, the original simple repressed desire begins to grow and take on a life of its own, many times in a form which is completely different from it's original. The desire becomes "dark" in nature.
Are you a Nazi? Just to clarify: NO! I'm too tired to explain this one.
Will you stomp on my balls? No. I respect your decision to enjoy being hurt/humiliated, but I, myself, do not enjoy inflicting pain, especially to a person's genitalia. It actually makes me kind of sad when I see men having their very manhood destroyed in such a way.
Will you tell me how small my dick is? Yes. But not to sexually gratify you. I don't like to humiliate people.
I've been bad. Will you tie me up and spank me? No. I am a very dominant person in real life and I am not sexually aroused by dominating men (or women). If anything, I've been a bad girl and I want YOU to tie ME up and spank me.... but just lightly.
Can I drink your piss? No.
Can I piss on you? No. Also, fuck you for asking. (This is actually a pretty common question.)
So whore, get on your knees and suck my cock. I know this isn't really a question, though the people who make this statement think I am somehow automatically their plaything simply because I have expressed myself to be whorish or slutty. First, people who make this statement really should form it in terms of a question, as that would be more polite. Second, I will be a whore on MY terms, not yours. I'll be your plaything if I judge you worthy of playing with me, but until then, I don't respect the whole caveman/slave mentality.
Lilith, why do you hate men so much? I don't hate men. I wouldn't be here on xhamster chatting with them if I hated them! With that said, there is a certain type of male personality that tends to rise up through the anonymity of the internet and which is put into overdrive on a porn site. It's hard to define, but I just really dislike it when a man uses assertiveness to mask his lack of confidence. Assertiveness does not equal confidence and it often just ends up coming off as rude and patronizing. I don't mind shy men... I actually prefer them nowadays... as at least they aren't putting up a facade. The overassertiveness act gets old. If you think that is what a man is, you have some more growing up to do.
Lilith, why are you such a bitch? Good question. First off...
Do you cam? No. Camming on a site like this opens up a person to too much risk. I won't do it even for those few people I consider actual friends on here. It's just not safe.
I've sent you like five messages! Why won't you reply!? Though I really do try to answer every PM I receive, I occasionally get overwhelmed. I don't mean any disrespect to those of you who have written, but I just cannot always get to all of my messages all of the time. When I check my inbox I often save the messages of which I intend to reply for last. When this happens I sometimes get distracted. The next time I log in, the message is pushed to the bottom and it sort of leaves my radar. So, occasionally, if I do not respond to you it's actually because you had something interesting to say and I wish to give you a more substantive response.
Are you a cop? Yes.
If you're really a woman, then why don't your prove it? Motherfucker, you're just going to have to accept my word for now. If you think I'm a guy, then don't chat with me. When I am continuously asked to prove my gender it makes me feel like I am doing something wrong or that I'm unwelcome. For the record, I've been a female my entire life. Just because my figurative balls are bigger than yours, doesn't mean I am any less of a woman.
What are your measurements? I'm much thinner than I should be and I've never had the biggest boobs anyway. So just pretend I'm whatever measurement you'd like.
Are you a d**g addict? No. I mentioned doing d**gs a few times on this site last year. It's been well over a year since I've done anything, but the d**gs I have tried were recreational and non-habitual. I have no plans on doing d**gs in the future, though there are several d**gs which I have not completely ruled out ever trying again. I don't encourage d**g use, but I think there is such a thing as using them responsibly, like any other form of stimulation.
Will you send me a pair of your used panties? No. Just... no.
What's your favorite color? That should be a no-brainer. Hint: It certainly isn't pink!
Lilith, are you a Satanist? I know I already answered this, but since it comes up a lot: NOOOOOO. I'm not a fucking Satanist!
Who ARE you? I'm Lilith.
Who the FUCK do you think you are? Kate?
Do you like anal sex? I actually prefer it over regular sex. There's a "naughty" aspect with anal sex that I just cannot reach while being vaginally stimulated. It just feels "wrong" and I get off on that so much. Provided everything is clean, I enjoy anal sex very much. With that said, it's sort of a finicky thing by it's very nature. I think this is why many women don't like it. Many men will try to stick it up there without letting their partner know, and that is just gross. When I have anal sex, I still need to feel sexy, and just going right in there does not make me feel sexy. It makes me feel the opposite. So with adequate preparation and some good luck, yes I like anal sex very much.
Want my sperm? There are many better ways to ask this question.
Wanna breed? Yes, but probably not with anyone who asks me like this.
So, did you ACTUALLY do what you reported in your gang-bang story? Yes. That gang-bang account is very real, though I must admit that some of the occurrences happened on other trips to the same theater. I combined everything into one story for the sake of convenience. I really was there for maybe eighteen hours on one occasion, and I had AT LEAST fifteen men. It's likely many more, but my mind was really muddled throughout the experience for a variety of reasons. It's not something I am necessarily proud of doing, but I'm not ashamed either. I had a right to seek pleasure in the way that I did Parts of the experience were fun, others not so fun. But I'm glad I tried it. Oh, and no. I don't recommend it!!! I think there are better and safer ways of experiencing group sex than a sleazy theater.
Will you ever do a gang-bang in a theater again? Probably not. The first... and second.... and fifth... and (you can see where this is going) times all hurt my self-esteeem pretty dramatically. While I don't think there is anything inherently wrong with group sex, I still have trouble separating the act out from everything I categorize as "dishonorable." To refer back to what I was saying concerning repression and the abyss of the u*********s, I had repressed my desire to be treated "whorish" for so long that my mind now associates "whore" with "bad." If I can ever get to a mindset in which "whorish" is "naughty" but personally "okay," then I might get gang-banged again. Until then, however, I don't wish to damage my mind any more than I already did.
Hey babe. What is the center of mass of the lamina of uniform density "p" bounded by the graph of f(x) = 4-x^2 and the x-axis? First of all, FUCK YOU!!! Second, it's (0, 8/5)... I think.
Lilith, would you kindly allow me the most humbled and cherished honor of inserting my sizable penis into what is most assuredly your very luscious and tight vagina so that I may then vigorously and rapidly begin to pull in and out of you until I ejaculate semen up into the highest recesses of your vagina with the intention of possibly impregnating you? Only if you buy me dinner first.
Who's "Lilith?" I explain this in my bio, however I wrote another blog entry with my conception of Lilith, what she means to me, and why I chose her as my avatar for this site. If you want a more historical/mythological perspective, Michaela has written an excellent narrative regarding such. Here are the links to the two blogs respectively:
http://xhamster.com/user/lilith10/posts/135768.html
http://xhamster.com/user/Mikebasil/posts/125149.html
Are you a Satanist? No. Though Satan and Lilith both involve the freeing of the soul through the recognition of the true motivations that underlay our psychology, Satan is oriented more around action, while Lilith remains oriented around self-awareness. Whereas many Satanists believe that freedom comes through acting upon one's desires, my concept of Lilith is that she represents freedom being obtained from simply recognizing those desires. Satanist believe that acting upon one's will, even if it harms another living being or imposes upon their will, is permissible so long as the person doing the imposing can get away with it, both in consequence and conscious. My concept of Lilith is that desires need not be acted upon to be satiated. They must be recognized and accepted, but so long as an action harms another living creature, it is to the benefit of our society that those desires be redirected or contained. But never should they be repressed.
So if Lilith is "good," why all the dark imagery? I believe in the psychological principle which asserts that all human beings have naturally occurring thoughts, impulses, desires, and fantasies and that all of these seek expression within an individual in one form or another, regardless of whether they are expressly recognized by that individual. I believe that when these psychic needs are not recognized, either because a person is deliberately ignoring them or because they are unaware of their existence, they become warped, distorted, amplified, and exaggerated until they are impossible to ignore. When they become impossible to ignore, they inevitably find expression, though many times this is to the detriment of the person.
I call this process of repression, warping, and forced expression "The Lilith Effect." The reason I use dark imagery to explain the concept is because when we repress something it gets thrown out of the conscious "light" and into the "darkness" of the u*********s. In the psychic abyss of the u*********s dwells all of the things we fear or hate or shun. Thoughts that we consider immoral or horrid or terrible or sinful have their home there. When we throw a perfectly natural desire into this abyss, it gets grouped with all of that nasty, actual bad stuff around it. While there, the desire remains very active, yet it begins to grow while feeding upon the psychic material surrounding it. Because it is growing in the u*********s in this way, the original desire often begins to take on the characteristics of its environment, i.e., it becomes associated with "bad" thoughts and nightmares and everything else which is forbidden. Thus, the original simple repressed desire begins to grow and take on a life of its own, many times in a form which is completely different from it's original. The desire becomes "dark" in nature.
Are you a Nazi? Just to clarify: NO! I'm too tired to explain this one.
Will you stomp on my balls? No. I respect your decision to enjoy being hurt/humiliated, but I, myself, do not enjoy inflicting pain, especially to a person's genitalia. It actually makes me kind of sad when I see men having their very manhood destroyed in such a way.
Will you tell me how small my dick is? Yes. But not to sexually gratify you. I don't like to humiliate people.
I've been bad. Will you tie me up and spank me? No. I am a very dominant person in real life and I am not sexually aroused by dominating men (or women). If anything, I've been a bad girl and I want YOU to tie ME up and spank me.... but just lightly.
Can I drink your piss? No.
Can I piss on you? No. Also, fuck you for asking. (This is actually a pretty common question.)
So whore, get on your knees and suck my cock. I know this isn't really a question, though the people who make this statement think I am somehow automatically their plaything simply because I have expressed myself to be whorish or slutty. First, people who make this statement really should form it in terms of a question, as that would be more polite. Second, I will be a whore on MY terms, not yours. I'll be your plaything if I judge you worthy of playing with me, but until then, I don't respect the whole caveman/slave mentality.
Lilith, why do you hate men so much? I don't hate men. I wouldn't be here on xhamster chatting with them if I hated them! With that said, there is a certain type of male personality that tends to rise up through the anonymity of the internet and which is put into overdrive on a porn site. It's hard to define, but I just really dislike it when a man uses assertiveness to mask his lack of confidence. Assertiveness does not equal confidence and it often just ends up coming off as rude and patronizing. I don't mind shy men... I actually prefer them nowadays... as at least they aren't putting up a facade. The overassertiveness act gets old. If you think that is what a man is, you have some more growing up to do.
Lilith, why are you such a bitch? Good question. First off...
Do you cam? No. Camming on a site like this opens up a person to too much risk. I won't do it even for those few people I consider actual friends on here. It's just not safe.
I've sent you like five messages! Why won't you reply!? Though I really do try to answer every PM I receive, I occasionally get overwhelmed. I don't mean any disrespect to those of you who have written, but I just cannot always get to all of my messages all of the time. When I check my inbox I often save the messages of which I intend to reply for last. When this happens I sometimes get distracted. The next time I log in, the message is pushed to the bottom and it sort of leaves my radar. So, occasionally, if I do not respond to you it's actually because you had something interesting to say and I wish to give you a more substantive response.
Are you a cop? Yes.
If you're really a woman, then why don't your prove it? Motherfucker, you're just going to have to accept my word for now. If you think I'm a guy, then don't chat with me. When I am continuously asked to prove my gender it makes me feel like I am doing something wrong or that I'm unwelcome. For the record, I've been a female my entire life. Just because my figurative balls are bigger than yours, doesn't mean I am any less of a woman.
What are your measurements? I'm much thinner than I should be and I've never had the biggest boobs anyway. So just pretend I'm whatever measurement you'd like.
Are you a d**g addict? No. I mentioned doing d**gs a few times on this site last year. It's been well over a year since I've done anything, but the d**gs I have tried were recreational and non-habitual. I have no plans on doing d**gs in the future, though there are several d**gs which I have not completely ruled out ever trying again. I don't encourage d**g use, but I think there is such a thing as using them responsibly, like any other form of stimulation.
Will you send me a pair of your used panties? No. Just... no.
What's your favorite color? That should be a no-brainer. Hint: It certainly isn't pink!
Lilith, are you a Satanist? I know I already answered this, but since it comes up a lot: NOOOOOO. I'm not a fucking Satanist!
Who ARE you? I'm Lilith.
Who the FUCK do you think you are? Kate?
Do you like anal sex? I actually prefer it over regular sex. There's a "naughty" aspect with anal sex that I just cannot reach while being vaginally stimulated. It just feels "wrong" and I get off on that so much. Provided everything is clean, I enjoy anal sex very much. With that said, it's sort of a finicky thing by it's very nature. I think this is why many women don't like it. Many men will try to stick it up there without letting their partner know, and that is just gross. When I have anal sex, I still need to feel sexy, and just going right in there does not make me feel sexy. It makes me feel the opposite. So with adequate preparation and some good luck, yes I like anal sex very much.
Want my sperm? There are many better ways to ask this question.
Wanna breed? Yes, but probably not with anyone who asks me like this.
So, did you ACTUALLY do what you reported in your gang-bang story? Yes. That gang-bang account is very real, though I must admit that some of the occurrences happened on other trips to the same theater. I combined everything into one story for the sake of convenience. I really was there for maybe eighteen hours on one occasion, and I had AT LEAST fifteen men. It's likely many more, but my mind was really muddled throughout the experience for a variety of reasons. It's not something I am necessarily proud of doing, but I'm not ashamed either. I had a right to seek pleasure in the way that I did Parts of the experience were fun, others not so fun. But I'm glad I tried it. Oh, and no. I don't recommend it!!! I think there are better and safer ways of experiencing group sex than a sleazy theater.
Will you ever do a gang-bang in a theater again? Probably not. The first... and second.... and fifth... and (you can see where this is going) times all hurt my self-esteeem pretty dramatically. While I don't think there is anything inherently wrong with group sex, I still have trouble separating the act out from everything I categorize as "dishonorable." To refer back to what I was saying concerning repression and the abyss of the u*********s, I had repressed my desire to be treated "whorish" for so long that my mind now associates "whore" with "bad." If I can ever get to a mindset in which "whorish" is "naughty" but personally "okay," then I might get gang-banged again. Until then, however, I don't wish to damage my mind any more than I already did.
Hey babe. What is the center of mass of the lamina of uniform density "p" bounded by the graph of f(x) = 4-x^2 and the x-axis? First of all, FUCK YOU!!! Second, it's (0, 8/5)... I think.
Lilith, would you kindly allow me the most humbled and cherished honor of inserting my sizable penis into what is most assuredly your very luscious and tight vagina so that I may then vigorously and rapidly begin to pull in and out of you until I ejaculate semen up into the highest recesses of your vagina with the intention of possibly impregnating you? Only if you buy me dinner first.
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