Explanation of My Profile
I have been harassed by another member complaining that my profile is obscene because of its religious imagery and some pictures which he considers too violent. So I wrote this brief outline explaining what each picture represents. The pictures are all metaphors. By explaining them straightforwardly I feel I am detracting from the power they conveyed when the viewer was left to their own interpretation. Though this profile is a reflection of my own life, it also mirrors many other peoples' experiences regarding their own journey into self discovery. I get messages every day from at least one person with which this profile has resonated. Yet, because certain people have a vendetta against me, I feel I must ruin the mystery and explain each image, one by one.
The person in question does not like me because I objected to his uploading of a brutal simulated **** video of his three months ago. The readers of this blog can judge for themselves which is more offensive and inappropriate for this site. This explanation is very, very brief, as I first intended it to be a simple comment.
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My page is a M E T A P H O R E for my life. Each picture is autobiographical. Each represents a snapshot of my mind, in relation to itself, at different intervals in my recent experience.
We'll go in order starting with picture number one:
1. That is a picture depicting Lilith, the goddess I have assigned to represent the psychological principal asserting that unrecognized desires will eventually surface. In that pic, there is Lilith, waiting to shed light upon my u*********s. You see her there, waiting, yet aware of her mission.
2.A dominatrix standing upon a black and white floor, representing the black and white thinking of my overly-disciplined military mind. She comes as a dominatrix in my psyche, standing there as she makes her presence first known upon my consciousness.
3. Lilith chains me to her clit, making me her submissive plaything. All color except for red begins to fade here, as I enter her world. I am the woman on the ground, bowing down to the mistress of truth. She will show me the truth through sex.
4. No color now. I enter into my u*********s mind. This period of self-inquiry is a solo affair, like masturbation, yet this activity is precarious in nature, hence the knife. If this period of self examination were to be fun, I might be holding a dildo, yet in this picture I am wielding a knife, alluding to the pain which I am about to inflict as I dig (as I fuck) deeper into myself.
5. Your "curb stomping" pic, to me, represented that dominant side of me. It represents that part of me which had to dominate over men during my career. Notice that the man is obviously in the military, his head pushed upon a keyboard by a strong, dominant female. This is a pic of my relationship to men up until that point, not hideous curb stomping you envisioned.
6. This is a picture of me discovering my more submissive side; her hands are clasped as if in prayer and are loosely cuffed, showing that she (I) enter into this act of submission voluntarily, and that I view it as a form of meditation and healing.
7. A picture of how I view myself just following retirement. I am depicted wearing a nun's outfit, representing my break with societal convention. Sex upon a grave is an act of rebellion, the breaking of that grave symbolic of the my break with the past (which is dead and buried.)
8.Before it was deleted by the user, this was a picture of two people embracing. On of them was clearly a Marine. The picture represented the love I now have for both my militaristic masculine side, and the feminine side which is now dominant. The pic was of the two kissing in tender embrace. In contrast to the previous pics, which all involve power exchange, the two people in this pic (the two halves of myself) were equal.
9. Picture representing neither power nor equality nor love. This depicts me, as I engage in frivolous group sex, which I did heavily in 2011. It was raunchy, but it was my right.
10. Pic of an eye being stimulated. Color becomes vibrant suddenly, as I reenter the days of my youth. Pics 11-14 depict my foray into rediscovering my fun side, my youth, before I entered the structured world of the Corps. Those pics are from a rave I attended monthly in Los Angeles. Raves are places to assert individuality, so these pics represent a period in my life in which i was actively reasserting my own wants and needs over the expectations of others. In the last pic, the women is sawing off a chastity belt.
15. A picture of dilated eyes constricting. This represents coming down from, not only the "rave" experience, but from the trip Lilith had taken me thus far.
16. Lilith's tour into my u*********s, as represented in the whirlwind of imagery above, was traumatic and left me devastated. After two years of self-discovery, of unbridled and unchained self-discovery, I felt shell shocked, depicted by the woman hiding her tears. The journey Lilith took me on was like nothing I had ever known, and I barely knew what hit me.
17. A picture of a woman with ropes around her wrists, yet unbound. Here, I depict myself as I search for meaning and possible forgiveness for what I had regarded (at the time) as two years of wasteful, degrading, debauchery.
18. Picture of a woman raising her arms to the cross. This pic represents the return of my attention to the spiritual life I knew as a girl. Though I am raising my hands toward the cross of Christ and Christianity, now, I look at the cross as my own (notice it is empty and not a crucifix). In this pic, I am embracing spirituality, not religion. The journey Lilith took me upon, here, becomes my salvation, as it was that journey which shed light upon parts of myself I had never seen. I embrace the mystery of the cross again, though with newly accepted knowledge of my soul and spirit. Lilith crucified me... she destroyed me with the truth, yet I raise my arms in this pic because it was in that destruction that I found salvation in the form of knowing and loving who I am. Lilith had become my Christ.
19. I end with a picture of a weapon which has become synonymous with the Marine. Having gone through hell and back, after delving into my u*********s with Lilith as my guide, I return, saved, and once again in control of my life. The knife is a symbol of discipline and authority, here representing the restoration of my own will over that of Lilith's. She had been my guide; I allowed her to be in charge, but now I am in control again. The knife is laid at rest, like a period at the end of a sentence, representing both an end and serving as a harsh reminder of the perilous, but valuable, journey I had just undertaken.
The person in question does not like me because I objected to his uploading of a brutal simulated **** video of his three months ago. The readers of this blog can judge for themselves which is more offensive and inappropriate for this site. This explanation is very, very brief, as I first intended it to be a simple comment.
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My page is a M E T A P H O R E for my life. Each picture is autobiographical. Each represents a snapshot of my mind, in relation to itself, at different intervals in my recent experience.
We'll go in order starting with picture number one:
1. That is a picture depicting Lilith, the goddess I have assigned to represent the psychological principal asserting that unrecognized desires will eventually surface. In that pic, there is Lilith, waiting to shed light upon my u*********s. You see her there, waiting, yet aware of her mission.
2.A dominatrix standing upon a black and white floor, representing the black and white thinking of my overly-disciplined military mind. She comes as a dominatrix in my psyche, standing there as she makes her presence first known upon my consciousness.
3. Lilith chains me to her clit, making me her submissive plaything. All color except for red begins to fade here, as I enter her world. I am the woman on the ground, bowing down to the mistress of truth. She will show me the truth through sex.
4. No color now. I enter into my u*********s mind. This period of self-inquiry is a solo affair, like masturbation, yet this activity is precarious in nature, hence the knife. If this period of self examination were to be fun, I might be holding a dildo, yet in this picture I am wielding a knife, alluding to the pain which I am about to inflict as I dig (as I fuck) deeper into myself.
5. Your "curb stomping" pic, to me, represented that dominant side of me. It represents that part of me which had to dominate over men during my career. Notice that the man is obviously in the military, his head pushed upon a keyboard by a strong, dominant female. This is a pic of my relationship to men up until that point, not hideous curb stomping you envisioned.
6. This is a picture of me discovering my more submissive side; her hands are clasped as if in prayer and are loosely cuffed, showing that she (I) enter into this act of submission voluntarily, and that I view it as a form of meditation and healing.
7. A picture of how I view myself just following retirement. I am depicted wearing a nun's outfit, representing my break with societal convention. Sex upon a grave is an act of rebellion, the breaking of that grave symbolic of the my break with the past (which is dead and buried.)
8.Before it was deleted by the user, this was a picture of two people embracing. On of them was clearly a Marine. The picture represented the love I now have for both my militaristic masculine side, and the feminine side which is now dominant. The pic was of the two kissing in tender embrace. In contrast to the previous pics, which all involve power exchange, the two people in this pic (the two halves of myself) were equal.
9. Picture representing neither power nor equality nor love. This depicts me, as I engage in frivolous group sex, which I did heavily in 2011. It was raunchy, but it was my right.
10. Pic of an eye being stimulated. Color becomes vibrant suddenly, as I reenter the days of my youth. Pics 11-14 depict my foray into rediscovering my fun side, my youth, before I entered the structured world of the Corps. Those pics are from a rave I attended monthly in Los Angeles. Raves are places to assert individuality, so these pics represent a period in my life in which i was actively reasserting my own wants and needs over the expectations of others. In the last pic, the women is sawing off a chastity belt.
15. A picture of dilated eyes constricting. This represents coming down from, not only the "rave" experience, but from the trip Lilith had taken me thus far.
16. Lilith's tour into my u*********s, as represented in the whirlwind of imagery above, was traumatic and left me devastated. After two years of self-discovery, of unbridled and unchained self-discovery, I felt shell shocked, depicted by the woman hiding her tears. The journey Lilith took me on was like nothing I had ever known, and I barely knew what hit me.
17. A picture of a woman with ropes around her wrists, yet unbound. Here, I depict myself as I search for meaning and possible forgiveness for what I had regarded (at the time) as two years of wasteful, degrading, debauchery.
18. Picture of a woman raising her arms to the cross. This pic represents the return of my attention to the spiritual life I knew as a girl. Though I am raising my hands toward the cross of Christ and Christianity, now, I look at the cross as my own (notice it is empty and not a crucifix). In this pic, I am embracing spirituality, not religion. The journey Lilith took me upon, here, becomes my salvation, as it was that journey which shed light upon parts of myself I had never seen. I embrace the mystery of the cross again, though with newly accepted knowledge of my soul and spirit. Lilith crucified me... she destroyed me with the truth, yet I raise my arms in this pic because it was in that destruction that I found salvation in the form of knowing and loving who I am. Lilith had become my Christ.
19. I end with a picture of a weapon which has become synonymous with the Marine. Having gone through hell and back, after delving into my u*********s with Lilith as my guide, I return, saved, and once again in control of my life. The knife is a symbol of discipline and authority, here representing the restoration of my own will over that of Lilith's. She had been my guide; I allowed her to be in charge, but now I am in control again. The knife is laid at rest, like a period at the end of a sentence, representing both an end and serving as a harsh reminder of the perilous, but valuable, journey I had just undertaken.
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