Random reflection

Random reflection

Journal Entry | about 1 month ago


I got with my dom back on dec 23 2012. Can say Befor that i could never get the words out to talk to him, till one day i saw his getting flogged at club vex,

As we got to know each other, I grew attached, Can say i more attached to him then what i was to zachA. Can say i was afraid to tell him. At first. It was so much easier once i told him and he felt the same way.

With him, He can see what other people do not. My smile can show one thing but he can see the pain in my eyes or the fear or me being sick. Or my horny spell. He can read me witch i find scary, because i cant hide anything from him.

I can say i dont like to bubble anything and not tell him what im bubble. He is someone i can come to when im depressed, hurt, or heading down a dark road and he can talk me out of it.

At first when we started playing, i did not respect him like i should of, and pushed him to see how far i could push him and racked up alot of punishments, Witch now i regret. I will take them because i know i did that to my self and wont hold it against him. As he punishes me thow i get wet, and horny. It may hurt and limits are pushed but im ok with this, I trust him with my life.

I can say I can trust him with my life when i come to it, I can trust him with sharp object around my body or even cutting into my body. i trusted him anufft to shove a needle throw my nipples. He has reminded alot to breath and keep me from going into a asthma attack.

I guess as it comes down to it, I found my match. I love him, I would do anything for him. I trust him with all of my life. I care about him. Hes there for me even if he cant be there in person.

Down the road i c where it goes from now, i would change anything right now. The only thing i would change i come down closer to him.