MY ADDICTION

I guess it's safe to say I'm addicted to sex, but lately it's been getting harder and harder to handle. Out of all my years of being in relationships I've always been faithful no matter what. Yea, I'm the one that runs around screaming monogamy. Never had I ever cheated. I would rather leave than to cheat, because to me that seemed like the best thing to do without hurting the other person. Now it's getting real hard to focus on one dick. The man I love, the man I crave for emotionally just doesn't have the right equipment to keep me satisfied. Yes, he has a small dick. Not tiny but def not what I would ask for. At one point I though love was enough, because with all my heart I do love him no doubt but my sexual desires have increased and I believe that sooner or later I won't be able to hide these feelings. As many of you know by my profile I love sex, it's what I do. He however is not as sexual as me. I want to explore many things, he is up to exploring but not as much as I. One of my latest obsessions is being with a female, most guys would love this but not he. At first I thought he was gay but now I just think it's him being selfish and wants to share me with NO ONE even if it's one of his fantasies. I was never the one to cheat but I am seriously considering meeting with a female. Many people I spoke with said if it's with a female it's OK but I don't think so. To me cheating is cheating no matter male or female. I do believe it would hurt less (fucking a girl vs guy) if he ever found out but still I know it would hurt. I also been dreaming about many past big dick lovers I've known, usually these dreams occur after a night of sex with him. I'm not going to say I'm not pleased with him because I am, I JUST WANT MORE. A BIGGER DICK AND MORE ROUNDS OF FUCKING AND A PUSSY TO PLEASE. In my past mind I would just leave him to go fuck people but I can't, not with him. I love him dearly and he loves me more than any person I ever been with. Some may say love vs sex is a no brainer but when your in the situation it's not as clear as day. As of right now I am strongly thinking about meeting a female through one of these many sites to meet for one night, but I was not born to lie, sooner or later I will get caught and it may be the end of a beautiful thing. I just have to decide whether it's worth it. I'm pretty sure none of ya are going to read this but it was nice getting my thoughts out.

Published by juicypeach

11 years ago

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Sweetyummy 9 years ago

that's great! when he isnt able to you just gotta please yourself

juicypeach Publisher 9 years ago

to Sweetyummy : I'm still with him. I haven't cheated but he's opening up we're trying new things :)

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Sweetyummy 9 years ago

Hun have you made up your mind yet?

Badazz12 9 years ago

It's a tough decision to make. If you haven't by now I hope you consider what really pleases you and not sacrifice it. You'll always crave that happiness no matter what. Good luck

brandj89 11 years ago

to juicypeach : Well I think its cool you staying loyal. I know a lotta people wouldnt and that takes commitment. It's always good having straight honest convos though so don't be a stranger. Feel free to add and message me if you want.

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juicypeach Publisher 11 years ago

to brandj89 : Exactly. Especially when everything else is great except this department Smh.I'm still stuck.

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brandj89 11 years ago

This is good honest posting. Part of the reason things didn't work out with my ex is because she wasn't adventurous enough, didn't give as much as she took, and honestly couldnt take much. It was tough bc you don't want to hurt anyone's feelings.

plussizepussy 11 years ago

Omg.. .girl.....I can completely understand where your coming from. I'm married to a man 9yrs older than myself. And even though that isn't that big of an age difference I swear it seems like he's old as dirt!Lol. I've always been a very sexual woman. ALWAYS. That's part of the reason he married me. Lol but the last 2years have been really tough for me. Unlike you I wasn't able to keep my urges under control. I cheated. And unfortunately the man I cheated with had he best dick I had ever had in my life! So of course one time turned into almost 2years of the best most sinful sex I had ever had. Hubby found out and our relationship has never been the same. He sometimes gets turned on by the thought of me fucking someone else but it pisses him off as well.... I wish I had the answer as to how to remain faithful when the sex just isn't what you want it to be... being on this site is constant temptation. And I know i shouldn't...but a long thick chocolate dick is my kryptonite. I can't stay away...

juicypeach Publisher 11 years ago

lol i cant lie for shit but if i did decide to do anything i might take u up on that offer to see if u can live up to your name ;)

daboss601 11 years ago

I understand what you mean.......i have built a great life with the woman i am with. She likes to have sex, but its sooooo mundane, the samething, the same position everytime. There is no adventure here, but she is my heart abd i haven't ever cheated on her. I just be wanting a "Hall Pass" for one night.............

jplaiz 11 years ago

This is realtalk...

juicypeach Publisher 11 years ago

to ScorpioEntertainment : This is not a boat I want to be on. I'm boutta jump lol

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ScorpioEntertainment 11 years ago

being a sex addict is hard when you dont get satisfied the right way... hell we both are in the same boat lol

Sweetyummy 11 years ago

honey i know its a hard decision but you will make the right answer.

OMG this is me me and my husband are not on the same sexual page he has a heart condition and can't give it to me as much as i need and when he tries he say's i'm killing him so guilty sinks in. We have had 3 sums and 4 sums but all that did is open up Pandora's box now i want more and he wants just us. So i fuck my husband to sleep each night then go in another room and fuck my bullet and dildos till the batteries go dead. So I say encourage him to try a 3sum as a gift to both of you and keep all the trust you have cause it hurts my husband to know he is not satisfying me

6ft4blackmale 11 years ago

You've gotten into a committed relationship but you're not finished exploring your sexuality. We're complex beings with complex feelings and desires. It sounds like you really love this guy, but THE most important aspect of all successful long lasting relationships is communication. It sounds like the communication department of your relationship has been lacking for some time now. Your sexual desires should not be a secret from this man, and it sounds like you're heading down a path of secrecy since he has no interest of you being in bed with a woman. You either have to bite the bullet and force the issue with him (telling him about your craving for bigger dick and sex with women) and make him understand that this is something thats REALLY important to you and it can't be swept under the rug by just saying "no". ......... Or you can just cheat. Obviously the easy road is to cheat. It's easier to cheat than it is to have a tough and difficult convo with your man. You're gonna have to make that decision on your own.