Fucking Intimacy
in·ti·mate 1 (nt-mt) adj.
1. Marked by close acquaintance, association, or familiarity.
2. Relating to or indicative of one's deepest nature: intimate prayers.
3. Essential; innermost: the intimate structure of matter.
4. Marked by informality and privacy: an intimate nightclub.
5. Very personal; private: an intimate letter.
6. Of or involved in a sexual relationship.
n. A close friend or confidant.
I am feeling like I'm craving intimacy. And sadly enough it seems that we as a people are becoming worst at intimacy. We are fucking... ALOT. However the sex is cold distant. It often ends up feeling like a sporting event rather than experienced that touched and satisfied mind body and Soul. It's "sportfucking" lots of sweating and grunting and slapping in order to backup trash talking or to outdo past personal best. A absence of intimacy pleasing each other because you know one another well enough to know exactly what the other craves needs and desires.
I'm a perv, a freak, a Nasty mf. However I prefer intimacy with it ALL. I want to be intimate in being in hotel room with a sexy INTIMATE friend or two, or Few, smoking great bud while watching porn and masturbating, making out and facefucking each other. I have been intimate TOTALLY with people within 24 hours of first meeting them. Real talk. Heavy, real, in depth conversation about shit that mattered to us and why it really mattered. Direct, honest real, sincere questions that are honored by honest, detailed descriptive answers. BULLSHITTING isn't fun once you've realized how much of your life you waste and consume doing it.
A experience on that level requires intimacy. And intimacy requires genuine INTEREST. Often times in Relationships we are often only interested enough to provide surface intimacy. Most treasure their Walls and defense mechanisms not realizing that it is those very things that prevent us from what it is we all really want. INTIMACY.
We want to be Loved, Known and appreciated by people who know us to our core. To know someone is interested in you in spite of your faults is perhaps one of the best feelings to have in the world. That core emotional component is often times what pushes us to become better as people. You find that you want to be even better for those who know you intimately.
Is it a " Love Connection" we seek? Love is often swapped out for intimacy. Suddenly we are now incapable or unwilling to be intimate unless we feel we are being totally loved(which is impossible when there is a void of intimacy).
Suicide and things of that nature are on the rise. I blame lack of intimacy. We walk around like zombies. Much too empty and too self absorbed to be truly interested in anyone who doesn't pay immediate dividends. We aren't sincerely INTERESTED in each other anymore and it's sad.
Damn I didn't want to rant. This just came out this way.
For the few that read this. Thanks for being interested. And I am very Interested in you.
1. Marked by close acquaintance, association, or familiarity.
2. Relating to or indicative of one's deepest nature: intimate prayers.
3. Essential; innermost: the intimate structure of matter.
4. Marked by informality and privacy: an intimate nightclub.
5. Very personal; private: an intimate letter.
6. Of or involved in a sexual relationship.
n. A close friend or confidant.
I am feeling like I'm craving intimacy. And sadly enough it seems that we as a people are becoming worst at intimacy. We are fucking... ALOT. However the sex is cold distant. It often ends up feeling like a sporting event rather than experienced that touched and satisfied mind body and Soul. It's "sportfucking" lots of sweating and grunting and slapping in order to backup trash talking or to outdo past personal best. A absence of intimacy pleasing each other because you know one another well enough to know exactly what the other craves needs and desires.
I'm a perv, a freak, a Nasty mf. However I prefer intimacy with it ALL. I want to be intimate in being in hotel room with a sexy INTIMATE friend or two, or Few, smoking great bud while watching porn and masturbating, making out and facefucking each other. I have been intimate TOTALLY with people within 24 hours of first meeting them. Real talk. Heavy, real, in depth conversation about shit that mattered to us and why it really mattered. Direct, honest real, sincere questions that are honored by honest, detailed descriptive answers. BULLSHITTING isn't fun once you've realized how much of your life you waste and consume doing it.
A experience on that level requires intimacy. And intimacy requires genuine INTEREST. Often times in Relationships we are often only interested enough to provide surface intimacy. Most treasure their Walls and defense mechanisms not realizing that it is those very things that prevent us from what it is we all really want. INTIMACY.
We want to be Loved, Known and appreciated by people who know us to our core. To know someone is interested in you in spite of your faults is perhaps one of the best feelings to have in the world. That core emotional component is often times what pushes us to become better as people. You find that you want to be even better for those who know you intimately.
Is it a " Love Connection" we seek? Love is often swapped out for intimacy. Suddenly we are now incapable or unwilling to be intimate unless we feel we are being totally loved(which is impossible when there is a void of intimacy).
Suicide and things of that nature are on the rise. I blame lack of intimacy. We walk around like zombies. Much too empty and too self absorbed to be truly interested in anyone who doesn't pay immediate dividends. We aren't sincerely INTERESTED in each other anymore and it's sad.
Damn I didn't want to rant. This just came out this way.
For the few that read this. Thanks for being interested. And I am very Interested in you.
11 years ago
