Me and depression &shit happens and sometimes
ever since i were young i have had problems with depression for the most part I'm ok
But sometimes things happen i kinda get stressed and quite low and so on
I'm an agency temp in a factory and one friday my phone and some money were taken from my coat £100
the day the agency books me to work the following week and with the weekend following it took till the following monday to sort out a replacement and that should of taken till 6pm that day instead it took till in till friday and even then i had to order another sim card that took another week so i have a week off work and the agency pretty much threaten to drop me for not having a working mobile
I also had to let one of the cam girls down because she had asked for some money to help with her
car i felt so bad for letting her down and so i de-friended her
With a week off work and spending pretty much a whole week with myself for company and fund running low i'm getting bored and low. I get back to work the following week but buy the weekend all i have left is the money to get me into work then someone on this site I'd always thought of as a good friend for the past years since i signed up asked me up to London for the weekend but with very little money i had to say no. at witch point she blocked and deleted me without chance to explain.
with every thing i got low went into self hate going in to cam girls rooms and putting myself down i'd also stopped taking my thyroid meds too.
at the moment i'm trying to build myself back up to happy go lucky jim instead instead of the unlovable loser jim but I could do with help and anyone that knows me know i hate asking for help
but the sort of help i'm after is simple things like just talking to as a friend even if its just to say hello and also you might know someone else in your own life like me so be aware of them too
I'm hoping to get back to being friend with this woman and hopefully we can talk and make a proper plans for when i have enough money to pay my way for the day and buy dinner for the two of us
but for now lets just wait and see.
But sometimes things happen i kinda get stressed and quite low and so on
I'm an agency temp in a factory and one friday my phone and some money were taken from my coat £100
the day the agency books me to work the following week and with the weekend following it took till the following monday to sort out a replacement and that should of taken till 6pm that day instead it took till in till friday and even then i had to order another sim card that took another week so i have a week off work and the agency pretty much threaten to drop me for not having a working mobile
I also had to let one of the cam girls down because she had asked for some money to help with her
car i felt so bad for letting her down and so i de-friended her
With a week off work and spending pretty much a whole week with myself for company and fund running low i'm getting bored and low. I get back to work the following week but buy the weekend all i have left is the money to get me into work then someone on this site I'd always thought of as a good friend for the past years since i signed up asked me up to London for the weekend but with very little money i had to say no. at witch point she blocked and deleted me without chance to explain.
with every thing i got low went into self hate going in to cam girls rooms and putting myself down i'd also stopped taking my thyroid meds too.
at the moment i'm trying to build myself back up to happy go lucky jim instead instead of the unlovable loser jim but I could do with help and anyone that knows me know i hate asking for help
but the sort of help i'm after is simple things like just talking to as a friend even if its just to say hello and also you might know someone else in your own life like me so be aware of them too
I'm hoping to get back to being friend with this woman and hopefully we can talk and make a proper plans for when i have enough money to pay my way for the day and buy dinner for the two of us
but for now lets just wait and see.
11 years ago
