My Early Years Bio
Hi and for those interested in knowing more about me, wished to write this post.
Like many of us, my interests in becoming what others would consider is kinky, began at age six. That is when I was tied up by two cute neighbor girls across the street and was just for fun, then forcibly kissed. From then on I dreamed of them not only tying me up, but putting me in their lacy underwear and hanging me from a clothesline in their backyard. I have had fetish oriented mind ever since. Curse those two girls from Alabama! ;)
Between ages 6 and 13, I would raid my older sister's drawers looking for things to dress up in such as ballet tights and leotards. Occasionally I would put on a dress of my mother's. At age 14 I became more and more intrigued by stockings and what they were. I even tried to make a garter belt with buttons sewn onto some cut pantyhose. I clearly had no idea what I was doing at the time. At about this same age I came into possession of an Adam & Eve catalog. I ordered my first white satin "corselette" with attached garters, matching lacy underwear and stockings. We lived on a farm in the rural Midwest and so I made certain I was the first every day to intercept the mailbox immediately following the postman's delivery for the next ten or so days. Needless to say, it arrived discretely in a bubble wrapped brown envelope and I finally understood for the first time what a garter was and how to put on a stocking made to be held up by a garter belt. This became my new night time pajamas that I would wear under the covers. And ironically, a very sexy item neither my mother or sister owned.
I then started going into lingerie departments whenever I would find myself in a mall and would inform the sales clerk that I wanted to buy something nice for my Mom. Surprisingly, even though I was young, nobody really cared and was more than happy to ring up the purchase that might consist of a purple satin camisole and matching slip. As time went on and I became older and in my later teens, I would say the purchase was for my girlfriend. To this day I remain a little shy purchasing lingerie and usually will not inform the clerk that it is for me. But know lots of CD/TG friends that are certainly unabashed and wouldn't hesitate in a heartbeat. For those no doubt this is good fun and no doubt most all sales clerks in the major cities have encountered us CD/TGs for a long time now.
Also at this same time I was introduced to pornography. I think we all can remember our very first experiences coming upon men's magazines. Playboy and Hustler Magazine were magazines that my friends came upon through an older brother, uncle or someone else, and there was some occassional kinky fetish wear pictures in that or damsels in distress. Also I loved comic books and there were from time-to-time some kinky artist renderings here too that I would secretly stash away somewhere in my bedroom away from my parent's or sister's watchful eye. And then or course there was television as an influence such as The Avengers that featured the female heroine Emma Peel in a catsuit and even once being secured to a wall wearing a medieval chastity belt and put into a metal head harness. All I knew was that I was being titillated but didn't understand what the point of being titillated was all about.
I then started to fixate on the dream state of my being forced to wear women's clothes. I dreamed as I had when I was six that a domineering woman (or women) would be in my life, forcing me to wear women's clothes. "forced feminization" is what the term has now become but when I was first starting out, all I knew is that I was different and weird.
All the while I had a stash of women's clothes to wear, usually to bed or when the family was out of the house. I also started to get into bondage envisioning what kinds of devices might a woman restrain me with? Hand cuffs? Leather cuffs? Metal Shackles? I started to make some (leather cuffs) and was actually pleasantly surprised at what I was creating even though had never been into an adult store in my life. I even recreated fairly well the big metal chastity device chained to the wall featured in the Avengers show I mention above. Sometimes living on a farm is not a bad thing! ;)
All of the above occurred at ages 13 to 14 and for me was so innate, that it was before I even learned what an orgasm is all about that ultimately became the icing on the cake. And my learning about masturbation came around age 14/15 from a boyhood friend who announced one day that he had heard of something we should try. We went up to his bedroom while his mother was downstairs. He had a big bottle of hand lotion and side-by-side, we then both began to stroke our little cocks that soon became hard but we both didn't quite know why. Then several minutes into it we both suddenly exclaimed that it seemed we were each going to pee, and then we both came. We were both like "what was that all about!?". Wild! That was the first and last time we ever did that together but was very glad for the experience as now I had something new to try at home.
I soon after then began experimenting with things such as a ways to make a crude "fleshlight" out of a toilet roll with some cotton and plastic wedged inside. I found that our vacuum cleaner could get me to cum in probably a minute or less. I even took an unused BBQ grilling rotisserie machine we had, and re-purposed it with a plywood wheel and attached to the outer edge of the wheel a metal cigar holder into a fuck machine. Somehow I even figured out that I could make a vacuum like bed, the kind you see made out of rubber, out of plastic and using a vacuum cleaner hose, shrink wrap me into a bondage position. Now I laugh at all these things I was inventing that later became became big commercial successes.
When I finally left the roost after turning 18 and had my first apartment, all hell broke loose from a tie-myself up standpoint and by then had learned what my hand could do. I learned all kinds of self bondage things, some of which I will be sharing on this site, and enjoyed each week immensely as my brain continued to be filled up with female domination, bondage, forced feminization, etc.
When I went off to college two years later in the big city of Washington, DC, I went into my first porn store. And was amazed that there actually printed publications on the subject of transvestism, cross dressing, transgender, etc.
IT WAS AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME, AT AGE 20, THAT I SUDDENLY REALIZED I WAS NOT ALONE AND THAT MANY SHARED THE SAME FETISH AS I DID!
That was a beautiful day. A sexually liberating day. A day where I could return home, put on my wig, make up and lingerie, and truly feel good about myself. And begin the process of meeting others of like mind. Unfortunately however this was the pre-internet age so I didn't get anywhere based upon the few handwritten letters I wrote to a few mistresses that placed personal ads in these publications. And I soon learned that most mistresses willing to dominate you were professionals and earned their living doing so.
After college I had the good fortune of a friend saying "why don't you consider making your career in California". I didn't think twice, as I knew based upon all the personal ads placed in the TG/CD publications of that time that many were Californians.
And sure enough, I found them! And hope you find a person, or like minded persons you identify with too! And share some exciting times. Experiences that complete your person as a whole. So someday, like me, will know that you will have experienced life at its fullest potential. You can rest assured that if you get to be so old that you'll be sitting in a rocking chair, that you will have a big shit grin on your face when you reminisce. As you will know, that you lived your life, the way you desired to, unfettered by societal norms.
Thanks for taking the time to read my early years bio. Now onto some fun! XOXO Little Miss Christi
Like many of us, my interests in becoming what others would consider is kinky, began at age six. That is when I was tied up by two cute neighbor girls across the street and was just for fun, then forcibly kissed. From then on I dreamed of them not only tying me up, but putting me in their lacy underwear and hanging me from a clothesline in their backyard. I have had fetish oriented mind ever since. Curse those two girls from Alabama! ;)
Between ages 6 and 13, I would raid my older sister's drawers looking for things to dress up in such as ballet tights and leotards. Occasionally I would put on a dress of my mother's. At age 14 I became more and more intrigued by stockings and what they were. I even tried to make a garter belt with buttons sewn onto some cut pantyhose. I clearly had no idea what I was doing at the time. At about this same age I came into possession of an Adam & Eve catalog. I ordered my first white satin "corselette" with attached garters, matching lacy underwear and stockings. We lived on a farm in the rural Midwest and so I made certain I was the first every day to intercept the mailbox immediately following the postman's delivery for the next ten or so days. Needless to say, it arrived discretely in a bubble wrapped brown envelope and I finally understood for the first time what a garter was and how to put on a stocking made to be held up by a garter belt. This became my new night time pajamas that I would wear under the covers. And ironically, a very sexy item neither my mother or sister owned.
I then started going into lingerie departments whenever I would find myself in a mall and would inform the sales clerk that I wanted to buy something nice for my Mom. Surprisingly, even though I was young, nobody really cared and was more than happy to ring up the purchase that might consist of a purple satin camisole and matching slip. As time went on and I became older and in my later teens, I would say the purchase was for my girlfriend. To this day I remain a little shy purchasing lingerie and usually will not inform the clerk that it is for me. But know lots of CD/TG friends that are certainly unabashed and wouldn't hesitate in a heartbeat. For those no doubt this is good fun and no doubt most all sales clerks in the major cities have encountered us CD/TGs for a long time now.
Also at this same time I was introduced to pornography. I think we all can remember our very first experiences coming upon men's magazines. Playboy and Hustler Magazine were magazines that my friends came upon through an older brother, uncle or someone else, and there was some occassional kinky fetish wear pictures in that or damsels in distress. Also I loved comic books and there were from time-to-time some kinky artist renderings here too that I would secretly stash away somewhere in my bedroom away from my parent's or sister's watchful eye. And then or course there was television as an influence such as The Avengers that featured the female heroine Emma Peel in a catsuit and even once being secured to a wall wearing a medieval chastity belt and put into a metal head harness. All I knew was that I was being titillated but didn't understand what the point of being titillated was all about.
I then started to fixate on the dream state of my being forced to wear women's clothes. I dreamed as I had when I was six that a domineering woman (or women) would be in my life, forcing me to wear women's clothes. "forced feminization" is what the term has now become but when I was first starting out, all I knew is that I was different and weird.
All the while I had a stash of women's clothes to wear, usually to bed or when the family was out of the house. I also started to get into bondage envisioning what kinds of devices might a woman restrain me with? Hand cuffs? Leather cuffs? Metal Shackles? I started to make some (leather cuffs) and was actually pleasantly surprised at what I was creating even though had never been into an adult store in my life. I even recreated fairly well the big metal chastity device chained to the wall featured in the Avengers show I mention above. Sometimes living on a farm is not a bad thing! ;)
All of the above occurred at ages 13 to 14 and for me was so innate, that it was before I even learned what an orgasm is all about that ultimately became the icing on the cake. And my learning about masturbation came around age 14/15 from a boyhood friend who announced one day that he had heard of something we should try. We went up to his bedroom while his mother was downstairs. He had a big bottle of hand lotion and side-by-side, we then both began to stroke our little cocks that soon became hard but we both didn't quite know why. Then several minutes into it we both suddenly exclaimed that it seemed we were each going to pee, and then we both came. We were both like "what was that all about!?". Wild! That was the first and last time we ever did that together but was very glad for the experience as now I had something new to try at home.
I soon after then began experimenting with things such as a ways to make a crude "fleshlight" out of a toilet roll with some cotton and plastic wedged inside. I found that our vacuum cleaner could get me to cum in probably a minute or less. I even took an unused BBQ grilling rotisserie machine we had, and re-purposed it with a plywood wheel and attached to the outer edge of the wheel a metal cigar holder into a fuck machine. Somehow I even figured out that I could make a vacuum like bed, the kind you see made out of rubber, out of plastic and using a vacuum cleaner hose, shrink wrap me into a bondage position. Now I laugh at all these things I was inventing that later became became big commercial successes.
When I finally left the roost after turning 18 and had my first apartment, all hell broke loose from a tie-myself up standpoint and by then had learned what my hand could do. I learned all kinds of self bondage things, some of which I will be sharing on this site, and enjoyed each week immensely as my brain continued to be filled up with female domination, bondage, forced feminization, etc.
When I went off to college two years later in the big city of Washington, DC, I went into my first porn store. And was amazed that there actually printed publications on the subject of transvestism, cross dressing, transgender, etc.
IT WAS AT THIS MOMENT IN TIME, AT AGE 20, THAT I SUDDENLY REALIZED I WAS NOT ALONE AND THAT MANY SHARED THE SAME FETISH AS I DID!
That was a beautiful day. A sexually liberating day. A day where I could return home, put on my wig, make up and lingerie, and truly feel good about myself. And begin the process of meeting others of like mind. Unfortunately however this was the pre-internet age so I didn't get anywhere based upon the few handwritten letters I wrote to a few mistresses that placed personal ads in these publications. And I soon learned that most mistresses willing to dominate you were professionals and earned their living doing so.
After college I had the good fortune of a friend saying "why don't you consider making your career in California". I didn't think twice, as I knew based upon all the personal ads placed in the TG/CD publications of that time that many were Californians.
And sure enough, I found them! And hope you find a person, or like minded persons you identify with too! And share some exciting times. Experiences that complete your person as a whole. So someday, like me, will know that you will have experienced life at its fullest potential. You can rest assured that if you get to be so old that you'll be sitting in a rocking chair, that you will have a big shit grin on your face when you reminisce. As you will know, that you lived your life, the way you desired to, unfettered by societal norms.
Thanks for taking the time to read my early years bio. Now onto some fun! XOXO Little Miss Christi
9 years ago
