I have found my lot in life
THIS WILL BE UPDATED DAILY UNTIL i KNOW my DESTINY
April 25th,
As the days approach May 1st, the anticipation and exhilaration is exploding within me. i want so much to please my Master as my probation draws to a close. Who holds my destiny in their hand? Is it me? Is it Master Robert? Will i be dismissed from bondage? If dismissed, what would my future be? Would i loose my girlfriend slave bonni? If i am dismissed, would she be banished from my life?
All i can do is focus on each day and please my Master to the best of my ability. Master desires me to expand my asshole for His pleasure. Since my beloved girlfriend and i began fisting each other's asshole, Master has instructed me to wear a 3" butt plug whenever i am home. i love the sensation and the idea of stretching my asshole for Master's use but it hurts so much when putting it in and taking it out. i am told the pain will subside as my asshole stretches. Once my asshole accepts this 3" butt plug without resistance, i will be challenged with a larger one and a larger and a larger. i willingly accept this challenge, it is more than a challenge to please my Master, it is an accomplishment few can appreciate.
I want so bad to succeed in my probation. i have found my lot in life. i look so forward to being a lifetime consensual submissive slave. i have never had such order in my life. i have never been so well disciplined, trained and schooled in Fitness, The Arts, Entertainment, Dance, Sports and service to others in both studying for nursing and surrendering of myself to others for their use.
April 26th,
i have such anticipation, i am literally sick to my stomach, to the point Master has excused me from my asshole expansion training. i can't keep anything down or in.
April 27th,
The anxieties are like the reversal of Christmas or Birthday. Normally, i'm like a little k** enjoying the excitement of the upcoming event. i want so much to be owned by Master Robert but i just don't know what is in store for me in just 4 short days. i'm still sick to my stomach and my belly is growling like i've never experienced.
April 28th
i have been so upset and worried about passing my probation, last night Master scolded me, He put both hands around my neck with His thumbs under my chin and tightened His grip on me. i enjoy being choked but this wasn't a choke. Master forced me to look at Him. He ordered me to look into His eyes and focus on His words and reflect on my behavior. Due to my intestinal nervousness, i've missed two days of school and this wasn't to continue just because i was scared. He told me if i didn't buck up and behave like the slave i desired to be, i would undo everything i had accomplished over the last six months. i'm still sick to my stomach but Master has trained me better than the way i've been behaving. i must say, i slept much better and went to school this morning. I look forward to a good meal this evening and hit the books to catch up on my missed class work.
This is my first chance to bring you up to date. It's May 1st but i'll enter this chronologically by date of the events.
April 29th,
i got the surprise of my life when i came home from class today. i was told to freshen up and put my best whorish make up on. i should have known right then as Mistress Danielle like all of us slaves to look like whores. i would be standing before a tribunal this evening to determine my station in life and if i will be accepted as a permanent slave. As my probation expired on a Sunday and school in the next morning, my schedule was moved up some. i was permitted a person of my choice to stand with me for moral support. Of course, i chose my lover, slave bonni. i was thinking of asking Master but thought that might be putting more pressure on Him. If Master were to 'testify' either for or against me, how could i ask Him to support me?
At 7:00 pm, i entered the very same dinning room where i was inducted, this time, i was dressed. There before me, seated at the table was Mistress Danielle and three other Dom's. my Master nor Sir G were among them. As my induction into consensual slavery was somewhat different than the usual M/s relationship was, it was determined (and recommended) by Master Robert that i must stand and explain why i wanted to remain in slavery by an impartial panel. There was no one else there but the eight of U/us.
i was asked a series of questions pertaining to my past six months and what i have learned. In any other setting, this might have been more like a job interview or a job advancement. i am not permitted to disclose all of the questions but generally, such things as "Do you want to remain a slave?" "Why", "What have you learned?", "What do you expect in your life as a slave?", "What are your goals in life as a slave?", "What if it was determined i should be rejected, what would i do then" and so on and then it became more personal which i can't discuss.
slave bonni never had to say a word on my behalf or support me in any way. we held hands as i answered every question without hesitation and looked directly in the eyes of the person who asked that question. i was scared shitless but never let it show. It was still comforting to know she stood with me.
When my tribunal was over, i bowed and said thank You as i was sent to the kitchen to wait for a decision. slave bonni came with me. Master Robert was interviewed and was less informally asked a series of questions about my behavior as a slave and mostly, if i was worthy of continuing as a lifestyle slave.
There was a discussion and a vote. With Master's encouragement, i was unanimously accepted into O/our lifestyle circle and declared the property of Master Robert. i later learned there was discussion about me being returned to Sir G but He had no objection to me remaining the property of Master Robert. As well, i would not be sold to Anyone at least until after my graduation of nursing school. Master was pleased with my advancement and training and had no intentions of selling me.
i am so grateful to be owned. i am my Master's permanent slave.
April 30th
To celebrate my newfound permanent station, Master, Sir G and to my amazement, a couple of my nursing supervisors/teachers and most of my classmates held a surprise birthday party for me. (my birthday was just an uneventful day while i was at the Mansion when i turned 20) This was a totally vanilla party and Master was introduced as my Uncle, slave veronica was introduced as my aunt and Sir G was introduced as simply "G", my Uncles best friend and bonni's boyfriend. (*That deflected several rumors) i was further surprised to learn one of my teachers knew Sir G but she didn't know of the Dominant role and it wasn't discussed.
We all met at a local and popular Karaoke Bar to which W/we all had a huge alcove where W/we could party without interfering with others nor they interfering with us.
OMG - i wish you could have heard (slave) bonni belt out some songs. she was dressed in a hot little black leather mini-skirt with a black sequent cowl neck halter that showed her cleavage and bare back. she got into the music and loved it. she could be a professional singer. her naturally raspy voice was amazing. Have you ever heard Kim Carnes sing "Betty Davis Eyes"? If you were there and had your eyes shut, you'd swear it was Kim Carnes singing. bonni was so awesome, throwing her beautiful hair and waving her arms. she was asked by one of out teachers if she'd sing "Don't Fall in Love With A Dreamer" but she wouldn't. First she said she needed a male to sing it with her, then she said she was living her dream and looked right into Sir G's eyes then mine. she told our teacher "being a nurse was her dream". W/we knew what she meant. Sir G's eyes started to well up with pride. Then she sang "Down On Me" like Janis Joplin and was on her knees on the stage, everybody loved her.
i was given so many gifts, i've never in my life received so many birthday presents and am so grateful to Master, Sir G, my classmates and teachers, they were so kind to me. The last 48 hours are the happiest in my life. Master took me aside and told me quietly, i had more presents at home. AAHHHH, i knew what was to come.
May 1st, (today)
In a private service this morning, i WAS COLLARED. i have never been so happy and satisfied in my short life. Master has adorned me with the most beautiful bondage jewelry like cuffs and collars i could ever ask for. i don't know which to wear first for Master. Leather collar and matching cuff's? Chrome? i will wear what Master wishes. slave veronica gave me her first posture collar. How sweet is that? i received a Turian collar to wear in the vanilla world (like school?)........
My bowels are still queezie from my recent nervousness but i am so excited to get back into my anal training. i absolutely love my station and being Master's property. i am so excited to go to O/our next house party so i can show off my collar and brag about being permanently owned.
Now that i am owned, i have a surprise for Master to show Him how proud i am.
i am so happy,
slave melissa
April 25th,
As the days approach May 1st, the anticipation and exhilaration is exploding within me. i want so much to please my Master as my probation draws to a close. Who holds my destiny in their hand? Is it me? Is it Master Robert? Will i be dismissed from bondage? If dismissed, what would my future be? Would i loose my girlfriend slave bonni? If i am dismissed, would she be banished from my life?
All i can do is focus on each day and please my Master to the best of my ability. Master desires me to expand my asshole for His pleasure. Since my beloved girlfriend and i began fisting each other's asshole, Master has instructed me to wear a 3" butt plug whenever i am home. i love the sensation and the idea of stretching my asshole for Master's use but it hurts so much when putting it in and taking it out. i am told the pain will subside as my asshole stretches. Once my asshole accepts this 3" butt plug without resistance, i will be challenged with a larger one and a larger and a larger. i willingly accept this challenge, it is more than a challenge to please my Master, it is an accomplishment few can appreciate.
I want so bad to succeed in my probation. i have found my lot in life. i look so forward to being a lifetime consensual submissive slave. i have never had such order in my life. i have never been so well disciplined, trained and schooled in Fitness, The Arts, Entertainment, Dance, Sports and service to others in both studying for nursing and surrendering of myself to others for their use.
April 26th,
i have such anticipation, i am literally sick to my stomach, to the point Master has excused me from my asshole expansion training. i can't keep anything down or in.
April 27th,
The anxieties are like the reversal of Christmas or Birthday. Normally, i'm like a little k** enjoying the excitement of the upcoming event. i want so much to be owned by Master Robert but i just don't know what is in store for me in just 4 short days. i'm still sick to my stomach and my belly is growling like i've never experienced.
April 28th
i have been so upset and worried about passing my probation, last night Master scolded me, He put both hands around my neck with His thumbs under my chin and tightened His grip on me. i enjoy being choked but this wasn't a choke. Master forced me to look at Him. He ordered me to look into His eyes and focus on His words and reflect on my behavior. Due to my intestinal nervousness, i've missed two days of school and this wasn't to continue just because i was scared. He told me if i didn't buck up and behave like the slave i desired to be, i would undo everything i had accomplished over the last six months. i'm still sick to my stomach but Master has trained me better than the way i've been behaving. i must say, i slept much better and went to school this morning. I look forward to a good meal this evening and hit the books to catch up on my missed class work.
This is my first chance to bring you up to date. It's May 1st but i'll enter this chronologically by date of the events.
April 29th,
i got the surprise of my life when i came home from class today. i was told to freshen up and put my best whorish make up on. i should have known right then as Mistress Danielle like all of us slaves to look like whores. i would be standing before a tribunal this evening to determine my station in life and if i will be accepted as a permanent slave. As my probation expired on a Sunday and school in the next morning, my schedule was moved up some. i was permitted a person of my choice to stand with me for moral support. Of course, i chose my lover, slave bonni. i was thinking of asking Master but thought that might be putting more pressure on Him. If Master were to 'testify' either for or against me, how could i ask Him to support me?
At 7:00 pm, i entered the very same dinning room where i was inducted, this time, i was dressed. There before me, seated at the table was Mistress Danielle and three other Dom's. my Master nor Sir G were among them. As my induction into consensual slavery was somewhat different than the usual M/s relationship was, it was determined (and recommended) by Master Robert that i must stand and explain why i wanted to remain in slavery by an impartial panel. There was no one else there but the eight of U/us.
i was asked a series of questions pertaining to my past six months and what i have learned. In any other setting, this might have been more like a job interview or a job advancement. i am not permitted to disclose all of the questions but generally, such things as "Do you want to remain a slave?" "Why", "What have you learned?", "What do you expect in your life as a slave?", "What are your goals in life as a slave?", "What if it was determined i should be rejected, what would i do then" and so on and then it became more personal which i can't discuss.
slave bonni never had to say a word on my behalf or support me in any way. we held hands as i answered every question without hesitation and looked directly in the eyes of the person who asked that question. i was scared shitless but never let it show. It was still comforting to know she stood with me.
When my tribunal was over, i bowed and said thank You as i was sent to the kitchen to wait for a decision. slave bonni came with me. Master Robert was interviewed and was less informally asked a series of questions about my behavior as a slave and mostly, if i was worthy of continuing as a lifestyle slave.
There was a discussion and a vote. With Master's encouragement, i was unanimously accepted into O/our lifestyle circle and declared the property of Master Robert. i later learned there was discussion about me being returned to Sir G but He had no objection to me remaining the property of Master Robert. As well, i would not be sold to Anyone at least until after my graduation of nursing school. Master was pleased with my advancement and training and had no intentions of selling me.
i am so grateful to be owned. i am my Master's permanent slave.
April 30th
To celebrate my newfound permanent station, Master, Sir G and to my amazement, a couple of my nursing supervisors/teachers and most of my classmates held a surprise birthday party for me. (my birthday was just an uneventful day while i was at the Mansion when i turned 20) This was a totally vanilla party and Master was introduced as my Uncle, slave veronica was introduced as my aunt and Sir G was introduced as simply "G", my Uncles best friend and bonni's boyfriend. (*That deflected several rumors) i was further surprised to learn one of my teachers knew Sir G but she didn't know of the Dominant role and it wasn't discussed.
We all met at a local and popular Karaoke Bar to which W/we all had a huge alcove where W/we could party without interfering with others nor they interfering with us.
OMG - i wish you could have heard (slave) bonni belt out some songs. she was dressed in a hot little black leather mini-skirt with a black sequent cowl neck halter that showed her cleavage and bare back. she got into the music and loved it. she could be a professional singer. her naturally raspy voice was amazing. Have you ever heard Kim Carnes sing "Betty Davis Eyes"? If you were there and had your eyes shut, you'd swear it was Kim Carnes singing. bonni was so awesome, throwing her beautiful hair and waving her arms. she was asked by one of out teachers if she'd sing "Don't Fall in Love With A Dreamer" but she wouldn't. First she said she needed a male to sing it with her, then she said she was living her dream and looked right into Sir G's eyes then mine. she told our teacher "being a nurse was her dream". W/we knew what she meant. Sir G's eyes started to well up with pride. Then she sang "Down On Me" like Janis Joplin and was on her knees on the stage, everybody loved her.
i was given so many gifts, i've never in my life received so many birthday presents and am so grateful to Master, Sir G, my classmates and teachers, they were so kind to me. The last 48 hours are the happiest in my life. Master took me aside and told me quietly, i had more presents at home. AAHHHH, i knew what was to come.
May 1st, (today)
In a private service this morning, i WAS COLLARED. i have never been so happy and satisfied in my short life. Master has adorned me with the most beautiful bondage jewelry like cuffs and collars i could ever ask for. i don't know which to wear first for Master. Leather collar and matching cuff's? Chrome? i will wear what Master wishes. slave veronica gave me her first posture collar. How sweet is that? i received a Turian collar to wear in the vanilla world (like school?)........
My bowels are still queezie from my recent nervousness but i am so excited to get back into my anal training. i absolutely love my station and being Master's property. i am so excited to go to O/our next house party so i can show off my collar and brag about being permanently owned.
Now that i am owned, i have a surprise for Master to show Him how proud i am.
i am so happy,
slave melissa
9 years ago
