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I am a survivor from what I have suffered from a very deep depression, 6 years ago of that day of August 9th 2010 changed my life forever,
It was almost the end of summer in 2010 & almost back to school time now normal I hated that time but only that time was different because it was gong to be my senior year of high school I was really looking forward to that but instead it became one of the worst times in my entire life,
August 9th 2010 around like 5 in the afternoon our phone was ringing my brother who was downstairs answers the phone it was my aunt rose she told my brother the horrible news my parents were out they got the message once they got home my brother went out then my parents sat me down & told me that my cousin Susie passed away,
She & I were very close she was like a second mother to me & was also my best friend, at first in my head I was in denial cause the last I saw her was the day after Independence Day she was fine but knowing through the collapsing of my heart that it was true she was gone Through that whole month I can't stop crying She was always there for me when I needed her, I felt that she was the only one in the family that understood me & cared, She would always listen to me & knew exactly what to say, I starting to have suicidal thoughts in my head because I didn't want to be alone & felt I can't make it the deep dark demon thoughts weren't going away till by the time I was 18 going on 19 I got into smoking pot & I felt that being my fix for my inner demons but unfortunately when the highness of the d**g wears off the thoughts came back but through out the bad times I had friends & teachers help me through after I got out of high school I went into therapy & now of this time got on medicine & I am getting better by taking one day at time but I have not forgotten about Susie I miss her everyday but knowing that she is still with me in my heart & I will see her again & be together as a family again,
Till then I must be strong for her.
So if anyone has ever suffer something like that please hit me up with a message or comments remember no negativity thanks
I am a survivor from what I have suffered from a very deep depression, 6 years ago of that day of August 9th 2010 changed my life forever,
It was almost the end of summer in 2010 & almost back to school time now normal I hated that time but only that time was different because it was gong to be my senior year of high school I was really looking forward to that but instead it became one of the worst times in my entire life,
August 9th 2010 around like 5 in the afternoon our phone was ringing my brother who was downstairs answers the phone it was my aunt rose she told my brother the horrible news my parents were out they got the message once they got home my brother went out then my parents sat me down & told me that my cousin Susie passed away,
She & I were very close she was like a second mother to me & was also my best friend, at first in my head I was in denial cause the last I saw her was the day after Independence Day she was fine but knowing through the collapsing of my heart that it was true she was gone Through that whole month I can't stop crying She was always there for me when I needed her, I felt that she was the only one in the family that understood me & cared, She would always listen to me & knew exactly what to say, I starting to have suicidal thoughts in my head because I didn't want to be alone & felt I can't make it the deep dark demon thoughts weren't going away till by the time I was 18 going on 19 I got into smoking pot & I felt that being my fix for my inner demons but unfortunately when the highness of the d**g wears off the thoughts came back but through out the bad times I had friends & teachers help me through after I got out of high school I went into therapy & now of this time got on medicine & I am getting better by taking one day at time but I have not forgotten about Susie I miss her everyday but knowing that she is still with me in my heart & I will see her again & be together as a family again,
Till then I must be strong for her.
So if anyone has ever suffer something like that please hit me up with a message or comments remember no negativity thanks
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