I want to be fine but I suffer from difficulties

Cosmetics are gone, costumes are broken, wallets are dropped,
and motivation has declined since last month.
By the way, I'm enema before inserting in anal. Enema fluid also disappeared

But I took a picture two days ago. But I was embarrassed because I couldn't make up my makeup so I didn't shoot behind me.
I do not want to retire but it is difficult because I feel stressed and my heart is painful.

I wanted to take sex photos and videos before I retired.
If I took a sex video,Contents may be anal fist or deep throat