Discovering my Sexuality
Before my awakening I had no desire for sex.
Sir and I over the years would occasionally rent an adult video. I enjoyed them but felt awkward about that. My whole life I would get aroused by seeing women get ****d in movies. It felt wrong so I would completely ignore those feelings until one day about four years ago Sir told me that he had to masturbate daily. I knew he wanted me a lot but never realized the extent of his needs. Finding out this information was the moment my mind changed and our life would be forever altered in the most positive way!
I felt horrible that I wasn’t meeting my husbands needs that along with the fear of him cheating or leaving made me throw out all the social and religious ideals that I had been raised with. I started watching porn online every single day. Sometimes hours at a time.This would spark my interest then we would have sex more frequently. I always watched forced rough sex. Mostly gang bangs or more than one man at a time. I would VERY TENTATIVELY forward clips of these to Sir’s email showing him what got me going. Not sure how he would respond. Soon after we would start talking about it. I shared my desire of wanting to be taken and so our journey began.
From the beginning it never seemed wrong or violent. It always felt like love and care to me. It took Sir some time to see it the same way.
Sir is no longer a minute man and the goal is not to make him cum. He can go and go and frequently doesn’t cum at all. I think some is his age along with the fact that he’s getting it regularly. I am now the sexual one and he has to keep up with my needs! I would have never in a billion years think this would happen. Didn’t even think it was possible. Sober sex. No guilt or shame. It’s truly been life changing! It has altered the way I view myself, humans, the whole world! I am a different person. The person I was always meant to be!
Written a few years ago.
Lisa Marie
Sir and I over the years would occasionally rent an adult video. I enjoyed them but felt awkward about that. My whole life I would get aroused by seeing women get ****d in movies. It felt wrong so I would completely ignore those feelings until one day about four years ago Sir told me that he had to masturbate daily. I knew he wanted me a lot but never realized the extent of his needs. Finding out this information was the moment my mind changed and our life would be forever altered in the most positive way!
I felt horrible that I wasn’t meeting my husbands needs that along with the fear of him cheating or leaving made me throw out all the social and religious ideals that I had been raised with. I started watching porn online every single day. Sometimes hours at a time.This would spark my interest then we would have sex more frequently. I always watched forced rough sex. Mostly gang bangs or more than one man at a time. I would VERY TENTATIVELY forward clips of these to Sir’s email showing him what got me going. Not sure how he would respond. Soon after we would start talking about it. I shared my desire of wanting to be taken and so our journey began.
From the beginning it never seemed wrong or violent. It always felt like love and care to me. It took Sir some time to see it the same way.
Sir is no longer a minute man and the goal is not to make him cum. He can go and go and frequently doesn’t cum at all. I think some is his age along with the fact that he’s getting it regularly. I am now the sexual one and he has to keep up with my needs! I would have never in a billion years think this would happen. Didn’t even think it was possible. Sober sex. No guilt or shame. It’s truly been life changing! It has altered the way I view myself, humans, the whole world! I am a different person. The person I was always meant to be!
Written a few years ago.
Lisa Marie
5 years ago