Preparing to Fuck Myself Up
I am married, and pussy-free for almost six years. This is my wife's choice. She travels for work and cucks me on most trips. I stay gooned, pantied, fucked up, addicted, denied, and living like the beta loser I am.
Every couple of months, my wife lets me officially cum (sometimes I lose an edge and ruin it). Two days ago, as she sat watching TV in the living room, I was allowed to sit next to her and pull my beta dicklette out through the fly of my shorts. She showed no skin, cleavage, or even interest. She told me that I could, "do my thing" if I felt I had to.
I stroked my beta dicklette, and in less than 30 seconds oozed out a weak, watery, load. My premature ejaculation, my inability to hold my load in my wife's presence, is part of why she began cucking me to begin with. I grunted and made goon sounds which caused her to look at me with disgust. As I sat in my own mess, she told me to go clean myself up. And so now I begin another denial session.
This is made more exciting because her next trip starts Sunday. She is going to the corporate office where she has a number of fuck buddies and will take alpha cock pretty much every night she is gone. As she prepares to go and takes along lingerie and toys for her dates. I am already preparing for at least two all night goon sessions that will leave me poorer, exhausted, and more pathetic than ever.
I love stroking all night, gooning, edging, and denying while I know my wife is out to dinner, getting fucked, and actively sleeping to be a talented executive. I know the rest of the world is living productive lives, while I am planning to put panties on, put a bra on, and edge to Porn all night, for hours on end.
My wife is actively getting fucked and making more money than me, while I miss deadlines at work, half sleep through meetings, and frantically jerk my little cock while denying it even the pleasure of releasing a load. I need to become even more pathetic. I need to become even worse while those around me become more, become better.
I cannot wait to fuck myself up for Porn. It is what I was born to do.
Every couple of months, my wife lets me officially cum (sometimes I lose an edge and ruin it). Two days ago, as she sat watching TV in the living room, I was allowed to sit next to her and pull my beta dicklette out through the fly of my shorts. She showed no skin, cleavage, or even interest. She told me that I could, "do my thing" if I felt I had to.
I stroked my beta dicklette, and in less than 30 seconds oozed out a weak, watery, load. My premature ejaculation, my inability to hold my load in my wife's presence, is part of why she began cucking me to begin with. I grunted and made goon sounds which caused her to look at me with disgust. As I sat in my own mess, she told me to go clean myself up. And so now I begin another denial session.
This is made more exciting because her next trip starts Sunday. She is going to the corporate office where she has a number of fuck buddies and will take alpha cock pretty much every night she is gone. As she prepares to go and takes along lingerie and toys for her dates. I am already preparing for at least two all night goon sessions that will leave me poorer, exhausted, and more pathetic than ever.
I love stroking all night, gooning, edging, and denying while I know my wife is out to dinner, getting fucked, and actively sleeping to be a talented executive. I know the rest of the world is living productive lives, while I am planning to put panties on, put a bra on, and edge to Porn all night, for hours on end.
My wife is actively getting fucked and making more money than me, while I miss deadlines at work, half sleep through meetings, and frantically jerk my little cock while denying it even the pleasure of releasing a load. I need to become even more pathetic. I need to become even worse while those around me become more, become better.
I cannot wait to fuck myself up for Porn. It is what I was born to do.
6 years ago
