Not Ashamed

Some people out there (like my family) will never understand why I do what I do. It is not some fetish but a lifestyle. I try explain what I feel when my sissy submissive side comes out. When I am dressed up I am no longer me, my body is no longer mine... I am there to pleasure him in anyway he desires. I belong to him.
With that...there is nothing that has ever made me feel totally dominated than being with black men. I am a whole different person. My first-time was just a supposed to be a curious blow job just to say I sucked a black dick...but when he laid me on my back and I felt that unimaginable pain of his cock enter me, to being fucked like I have never been fucked before. I was hooked.
Again not a fetish, I am proud to be a black cock sissy and not ashamed of it.