How I become a boy devoted to BBC #3
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After that message I haven’t heard from him for a couple of weeks. Day after day I thought he might have changed his mind. I did not dare to write him, also they finished working in the park so I did not see him during my running. One day, in the early morning I got his message: “Today in the afternoon I am going to fuck your ass, let me know the exact time”. My heart started to pump so fast, I could not believe it was going to happen. I wrote:” at 5.30 pm”. He sent me the address and the name to ring at the front door. I kept telling to myself that I was crazy and how could I put myself in this weird situation…However the excitment was too strong.
I took a shower, I shaved my legs and butt up to the waist as he required. Then I started my day, at university, studying etc…In the afternoon at about 2 pm I went home, I was so excited..i could not think about anything else. Soon I would have met my black lover…although I knew he just wanted to fuck me, for me it was important that everything should have been perfect. It was an important test and I really wanted to please him. So I took the ******* and cleaned my bowel. Then I took another shower and it was so sexy to feel the soap on my shaved skin. In the shower I played just a little bit again with the dildo to make sure I was well opened. I did not push it deep because I did not want to risk get an injury. Then I put the body cream on my legs and on my ass cheeks…i smelled so slutty. I was doing all this for him and it was not because he ordered it…it was because I wanted to please and serve…I wanted to feel I was his property and he could take me as he wished.
I was ready, i took my bag with the lingerie, lube and the big syringe, I wanted to use it to inject some lube inside just before putting myself in doggy position. I arrived at the front door and I sent a sms
Me: “I am here”
The door unlocked and I got his message:” 4th floor you find open door”
I took the elevator, arrived, found the door and entered. I spotted the entrance to the bedroom. In Italy we have these “tapparelle” which are a kind of shades wich can be rolled up or down and completely shade the light coming from the window. In the room it was completely down so I had to turn on light to see inside. Then I closed the door, I undressed and then I put all the things he asked…stockings, g-string , black t-shirt. I put some more body cream to refresh the perfume and I injected some lube inside me. I looked myself at the mirror at the bed side and I thought “What am I doing? how could I be so crazy….maybe I am still in time to quit”.
Then I said: “I put so much time and energies on this, I already discovered things of me I never imagined..i have to go to the end and see what happens…but this think is crazy and I will not repeat it. Just make it finish quick, go home and forget it has ever happened”.
I sent sms: “ready”,
Then I turned off the light and I put myself in doggy position at the border of the bed. Everything was dark I could not see anything. Soon the door opened and closed quickly. I could hear him approaching…and he said something in his language..i do not know what but I imagine it was related to the perfume…suddenly I felt his hands on me…soon they found my ass cheeks…he was caressing my ass and legs moving from the nylon part to the naked skin. He was talking in his language and moaning, it sounded like he was enjoying and I was happy and excited. Sometimes he slapped my ass cheeks quite strongly. Having his hands running on my body and not being able to see anything was so exciting to me…my head was spinning I was out of me…I think I have never desired so badly to be fucked. Soon he took his cock out and used it to slap my ass cheeks. It was so heavy….and hard. I could not see it, so I could not guess the size but it was big…and it was hot. He put my g-string on a side and with his fingers touched my ass….he felt it was lubed and ready. He moaned saying something not understandable to me.
Then he placed the head of his cock at the entrance of my asshole, he moved a little bit around to make his way around my lips (yes, after playing with the dildo my ass has a sort of small lips like a pussy..if you want to see them send a message ask me : “show me your lips”…I will send you a picture). With only one movement he pushed it all inside me. It was a little painful I did not expect him to push so hard at the first stroke so I screamed a little bit. I think this scream excited him…as he put his left hand to cover my mouth, with the other hand he grabbed my hip and immediately started pounding me fast and deep. He did not let me the time to adjust my body to his size. There was a little bit of pain but I could handle it. Also, I could tell that having such a big cock fucking you so hard, fast and deep was a completely different experience with respect to the dildo. I could feel like electric sparks when he pushed his cock deep in me and I felt some drop of cum coming out of my penis, without touching myself when he gave me strong, ball deep strokes.
I felt completely lost in his strong arms..I felt owned like I have never been before…..he was taking my body for his pleasure and, almost without my permission….well I could not say that because I accepted his conditions….but as long as I knew myself, the person I was before meeting him would have never accepted to be used like that. Anyway…he continued pumping me hard, sometimes his strokes were so powerful and deep that I could feel he was close to hit my sigmoid making my body shiver. Maybe he was 7 or 7.5 inch, I could tell he was not as long as my dildo. Nevertheless the hard pounding was really a surprise to me. For the first time I could experience it with a man..and it was another world with a real cock and a real man rather than playing with the dildo. The feeling was the best I have ever experienced, at a certain point I realized that my cock was dripping cum in my small thong, I was orgasming without touching myself. It was a long orgasm, much longer than the one you have when masturbating and it became more intense with stronger strokes from him.
At a certain point he started to take slower thrusts but more intense and he was pressing against my body, taking me with both hands on my waist. He started moaning and shaking…he was cumming inside me. I loved the moment of his climax because I completely felt like his bitch. I felt like we were two animals mating and I was giving him a powerful orgasm like he has already done to me. The only weird thing was: “I could not feel his cum inside of me”;
A few seconds later after injecting his seed inside me he left without saying anything. I stayed in the same position, face down ass up, for a few minutes…my body was shaking and I felt fully satisfied and happy. Also, I was exhausted. Overall...it was by far the best sex of my life. I had a definitive proof that my sex life could have been complete having a black man with a big cock as a partner. I started having these thoughts that after all I was similar to a real woman: I could orgasm when fucked by a big black cock and I could give him powerful orgasms as well.
Soon I got a message from him…”get ready quick and go home”. I answered:”ok”. Turned the lights on, took off the lingerie and put my normal clothes. Taking off my gstrings I noticed that my cum drops where there and I reminded of the strong orgasm I had. I still could not believe it was so wonderful!!
After I changed my clothes I could feel my ass was wet but I did not bring any tissue with me and I had not the permission to go to his toilet to wash. I said:” ok I have my normal panties which are bigger than the g-string so they will absorb the cum drops he unloaded on me”.
Walking on my way home and taking the bus I was thinking all the time about what I did. It was the best sex I ever had in my life but I knew something was missing…I mean it has been so different with respect to how I imagined the sex should be. It was without touching and kissing, with no passion, without looking at eachoter, I would have liked to touch his muscular body, to feel his arms, to kiss his body. I would have liked to look into his dark eyes while he was fucking me from the front rather than having only a blind doggy. I would have liked to smell his odour, to see, to kiss and to lick his big cock. What I had was not sex, it was only a fuck…the greatest fuck ever had but just a fuck.
In the meanwhile I could feel something dripping out from my ass going on my panties and actually also wetting and spotting my pants….it was his cum!! How could that be so much?? I was used to my cum and I never imagined he could deliver such a big load. Now I was afraid people could see the spot on my pants. In that precise moment I felt I have been used as a real bitch.
I suddenly remembered his words at the park:” I need to empty my balls and your ass is the perfect cumdump”. So he reached his goal. He managed to convince me to be used without any respect and send me home with his cum dripping down my legs like a bitch fucked by a dog on the street. Now I had to face the consequences and the embarrassment of having his cum dripping while I was walking.
My first thoughts were: “ok..this was the first and the last time”.
Then I kept repeating in my head: “ the fucking was so good though…nobody fucked me this way before and I know nobody will”
Then my rational part: “But that was so degradating and I felt so humiliated thinking of what I did”
And more: ”He does not care about me I am just one asshole for him”
But then my stream of thoughts took a different path: “he left his cum inside me so that I can still feel him inside me”
And things like: “he surely cares about me and he wanted to show I am his property…like dogs use to mark the territory, cause he does not want other men to look at me”.
And finally: “ Ok how can I solve this problem of the cum dripping out if I cannot use his bathroom?”. The answer was easy…use panty liner after sex!!. I felt like a genius for having this woman-like idea!!!
As soon as I arrived at home I rushed to the bathroom to change my clothes and wash…I touched my asshole and I could feel his sperm on my fingers…although it became completely liquid. All the memories came out like flashes in my mind and the excitement was so strong i could not resist I had to smell it!
I loved it so much, it was the scent of the man who fucked me so hard…then I put the fingers in my mouth…I had to taste it. That was the sign I wanted more of him, I needed more of him. He changed my way of thinking about sex, about being a sexual object….he made me obsessed to him, to his cock and I was surprised but I had to admit, also to his cum. And again: “Does that mean that I ams the perfect cumdump as he mentioned? I cannot believe he understood so many things about me just that morning at the park, things of me didn’t know”
Finally: “He was right in everything, I don’t know how he could sense it but he did. I should stop fighting against my own nature and just accept it.”
And also: “i will never be a man like him so the best I can do is to serve men like him….to fulfill their sexual needs, I am good at doing it”…” after all my small cock is useless while my ass can give me the most intese orgasms ever ”.
Finally my conclusion was:” Let’s start with the sex and I am sure that with time I will get closer to him and I will convince him to make love rather than just sex.”
I wanted to share all these feelings and thoughts with him, he had to know how he opened my mind and how I cared about him. So I sent him a message with the aim to start a conversation:
“ it was wonderful, you are wonderful”.
He answered: ” you are now a black cock slut, by the way you do not have the permission to write me”
I obeyed so did not answer. However, I was shocked, confused and with many questions I could not ask...maybe he did not like it? were we going to meet again? maybe it was a one shot only?
Well it actually was the beginning of a new life for me ..but this is another story.
After that message I haven’t heard from him for a couple of weeks. Day after day I thought he might have changed his mind. I did not dare to write him, also they finished working in the park so I did not see him during my running. One day, in the early morning I got his message: “Today in the afternoon I am going to fuck your ass, let me know the exact time”. My heart started to pump so fast, I could not believe it was going to happen. I wrote:” at 5.30 pm”. He sent me the address and the name to ring at the front door. I kept telling to myself that I was crazy and how could I put myself in this weird situation…However the excitment was too strong.
I took a shower, I shaved my legs and butt up to the waist as he required. Then I started my day, at university, studying etc…In the afternoon at about 2 pm I went home, I was so excited..i could not think about anything else. Soon I would have met my black lover…although I knew he just wanted to fuck me, for me it was important that everything should have been perfect. It was an important test and I really wanted to please him. So I took the ******* and cleaned my bowel. Then I took another shower and it was so sexy to feel the soap on my shaved skin. In the shower I played just a little bit again with the dildo to make sure I was well opened. I did not push it deep because I did not want to risk get an injury. Then I put the body cream on my legs and on my ass cheeks…i smelled so slutty. I was doing all this for him and it was not because he ordered it…it was because I wanted to please and serve…I wanted to feel I was his property and he could take me as he wished.
I was ready, i took my bag with the lingerie, lube and the big syringe, I wanted to use it to inject some lube inside just before putting myself in doggy position. I arrived at the front door and I sent a sms
Me: “I am here”
The door unlocked and I got his message:” 4th floor you find open door”
I took the elevator, arrived, found the door and entered. I spotted the entrance to the bedroom. In Italy we have these “tapparelle” which are a kind of shades wich can be rolled up or down and completely shade the light coming from the window. In the room it was completely down so I had to turn on light to see inside. Then I closed the door, I undressed and then I put all the things he asked…stockings, g-string , black t-shirt. I put some more body cream to refresh the perfume and I injected some lube inside me. I looked myself at the mirror at the bed side and I thought “What am I doing? how could I be so crazy….maybe I am still in time to quit”.
Then I said: “I put so much time and energies on this, I already discovered things of me I never imagined..i have to go to the end and see what happens…but this think is crazy and I will not repeat it. Just make it finish quick, go home and forget it has ever happened”.
I sent sms: “ready”,
Then I turned off the light and I put myself in doggy position at the border of the bed. Everything was dark I could not see anything. Soon the door opened and closed quickly. I could hear him approaching…and he said something in his language..i do not know what but I imagine it was related to the perfume…suddenly I felt his hands on me…soon they found my ass cheeks…he was caressing my ass and legs moving from the nylon part to the naked skin. He was talking in his language and moaning, it sounded like he was enjoying and I was happy and excited. Sometimes he slapped my ass cheeks quite strongly. Having his hands running on my body and not being able to see anything was so exciting to me…my head was spinning I was out of me…I think I have never desired so badly to be fucked. Soon he took his cock out and used it to slap my ass cheeks. It was so heavy….and hard. I could not see it, so I could not guess the size but it was big…and it was hot. He put my g-string on a side and with his fingers touched my ass….he felt it was lubed and ready. He moaned saying something not understandable to me.
Then he placed the head of his cock at the entrance of my asshole, he moved a little bit around to make his way around my lips (yes, after playing with the dildo my ass has a sort of small lips like a pussy..if you want to see them send a message ask me : “show me your lips”…I will send you a picture). With only one movement he pushed it all inside me. It was a little painful I did not expect him to push so hard at the first stroke so I screamed a little bit. I think this scream excited him…as he put his left hand to cover my mouth, with the other hand he grabbed my hip and immediately started pounding me fast and deep. He did not let me the time to adjust my body to his size. There was a little bit of pain but I could handle it. Also, I could tell that having such a big cock fucking you so hard, fast and deep was a completely different experience with respect to the dildo. I could feel like electric sparks when he pushed his cock deep in me and I felt some drop of cum coming out of my penis, without touching myself when he gave me strong, ball deep strokes.
I felt completely lost in his strong arms..I felt owned like I have never been before…..he was taking my body for his pleasure and, almost without my permission….well I could not say that because I accepted his conditions….but as long as I knew myself, the person I was before meeting him would have never accepted to be used like that. Anyway…he continued pumping me hard, sometimes his strokes were so powerful and deep that I could feel he was close to hit my sigmoid making my body shiver. Maybe he was 7 or 7.5 inch, I could tell he was not as long as my dildo. Nevertheless the hard pounding was really a surprise to me. For the first time I could experience it with a man..and it was another world with a real cock and a real man rather than playing with the dildo. The feeling was the best I have ever experienced, at a certain point I realized that my cock was dripping cum in my small thong, I was orgasming without touching myself. It was a long orgasm, much longer than the one you have when masturbating and it became more intense with stronger strokes from him.
At a certain point he started to take slower thrusts but more intense and he was pressing against my body, taking me with both hands on my waist. He started moaning and shaking…he was cumming inside me. I loved the moment of his climax because I completely felt like his bitch. I felt like we were two animals mating and I was giving him a powerful orgasm like he has already done to me. The only weird thing was: “I could not feel his cum inside of me”;
A few seconds later after injecting his seed inside me he left without saying anything. I stayed in the same position, face down ass up, for a few minutes…my body was shaking and I felt fully satisfied and happy. Also, I was exhausted. Overall...it was by far the best sex of my life. I had a definitive proof that my sex life could have been complete having a black man with a big cock as a partner. I started having these thoughts that after all I was similar to a real woman: I could orgasm when fucked by a big black cock and I could give him powerful orgasms as well.
Soon I got a message from him…”get ready quick and go home”. I answered:”ok”. Turned the lights on, took off the lingerie and put my normal clothes. Taking off my gstrings I noticed that my cum drops where there and I reminded of the strong orgasm I had. I still could not believe it was so wonderful!!
After I changed my clothes I could feel my ass was wet but I did not bring any tissue with me and I had not the permission to go to his toilet to wash. I said:” ok I have my normal panties which are bigger than the g-string so they will absorb the cum drops he unloaded on me”.
Walking on my way home and taking the bus I was thinking all the time about what I did. It was the best sex I ever had in my life but I knew something was missing…I mean it has been so different with respect to how I imagined the sex should be. It was without touching and kissing, with no passion, without looking at eachoter, I would have liked to touch his muscular body, to feel his arms, to kiss his body. I would have liked to look into his dark eyes while he was fucking me from the front rather than having only a blind doggy. I would have liked to smell his odour, to see, to kiss and to lick his big cock. What I had was not sex, it was only a fuck…the greatest fuck ever had but just a fuck.
In the meanwhile I could feel something dripping out from my ass going on my panties and actually also wetting and spotting my pants….it was his cum!! How could that be so much?? I was used to my cum and I never imagined he could deliver such a big load. Now I was afraid people could see the spot on my pants. In that precise moment I felt I have been used as a real bitch.
I suddenly remembered his words at the park:” I need to empty my balls and your ass is the perfect cumdump”. So he reached his goal. He managed to convince me to be used without any respect and send me home with his cum dripping down my legs like a bitch fucked by a dog on the street. Now I had to face the consequences and the embarrassment of having his cum dripping while I was walking.
My first thoughts were: “ok..this was the first and the last time”.
Then I kept repeating in my head: “ the fucking was so good though…nobody fucked me this way before and I know nobody will”
Then my rational part: “But that was so degradating and I felt so humiliated thinking of what I did”
And more: ”He does not care about me I am just one asshole for him”
But then my stream of thoughts took a different path: “he left his cum inside me so that I can still feel him inside me”
And things like: “he surely cares about me and he wanted to show I am his property…like dogs use to mark the territory, cause he does not want other men to look at me”.
And finally: “ Ok how can I solve this problem of the cum dripping out if I cannot use his bathroom?”. The answer was easy…use panty liner after sex!!. I felt like a genius for having this woman-like idea!!!
As soon as I arrived at home I rushed to the bathroom to change my clothes and wash…I touched my asshole and I could feel his sperm on my fingers…although it became completely liquid. All the memories came out like flashes in my mind and the excitement was so strong i could not resist I had to smell it!
I loved it so much, it was the scent of the man who fucked me so hard…then I put the fingers in my mouth…I had to taste it. That was the sign I wanted more of him, I needed more of him. He changed my way of thinking about sex, about being a sexual object….he made me obsessed to him, to his cock and I was surprised but I had to admit, also to his cum. And again: “Does that mean that I ams the perfect cumdump as he mentioned? I cannot believe he understood so many things about me just that morning at the park, things of me didn’t know”
Finally: “He was right in everything, I don’t know how he could sense it but he did. I should stop fighting against my own nature and just accept it.”
And also: “i will never be a man like him so the best I can do is to serve men like him….to fulfill their sexual needs, I am good at doing it”…” after all my small cock is useless while my ass can give me the most intese orgasms ever ”.
Finally my conclusion was:” Let’s start with the sex and I am sure that with time I will get closer to him and I will convince him to make love rather than just sex.”
I wanted to share all these feelings and thoughts with him, he had to know how he opened my mind and how I cared about him. So I sent him a message with the aim to start a conversation:
“ it was wonderful, you are wonderful”.
He answered: ” you are now a black cock slut, by the way you do not have the permission to write me”
I obeyed so did not answer. However, I was shocked, confused and with many questions I could not ask...maybe he did not like it? were we going to meet again? maybe it was a one shot only?
Well it actually was the beginning of a new life for me ..but this is another story.
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